verushka70: CKR laughs in this publicity photo outtake from Due South ep Strange Bedfellows. (DS)
How did I get into due South? well, it has a lot to do with Forever Knight - my first fandom.

Expandfor reasons that need exploring at this juncture, Forever Knight and the early Internet led me to due South )

A bunch of Forever Knight fen were also into due South, or got into it because some dS actors guest starred on FK (Catherine Bruhier and Christina Cox). I would surf someone's FK fic/pic web page and see pictures of a Mountie. I thought, Wellllll, he's handsome. But I didn't pay it much attention, because I was there strictly for the Forever Knight vampires Nick and LaCroix - and the slashy pics and fics of them on people's early web pages.

Then CBS broadcast the S3 Forever Knight episode "Outside the Lines" - in which CKR guest starred. When I saw that episode, I thought, Christ, this guy [CKR] is unbelievably charismatic; the camera loves him. He just had this crazy charisma, and I couldn't take my eyes off him. I had no idea who he was, other than a guest star on Forever Knight.

Expandit honestly started with CKR even though I had no idea who he was at that time, other than a guest on Forever Knight )
Anyhoo, coming from Forever Knight's Nick/LaCroix heavily angsty father/son vampire m/m relationship -- and the Nick/Janette/LaCroix angsty m/f/m OT3 canon backstory -- plus the potential Nick/Nat/LaCroix from the episode "Valentine's Day" -- plus the general darkness and angst of Forever Knight, you really can't blame me for thinking due South looked like a boring, non-slashy prime time G-rated family-oriented show.
Expandother reasons I didn't initially vibe with dS, such as being a sucker for Anne Rice's Vampire Chronicles )

I was bored and I wanted another show to get into. While consoling myself with the FK Nick/LC slashfic, I saw the promo photos started coming out for S3 due South. And although they weren't fantastic, I was like, Oooooohh, there's a nice slashy vibe here in these pics. (They were being posted on the web pages of people into both FK and dS -- usually with some cranky or bitchy comment about "the new guy.") Well, I didn't know anything about the show, really.

ExpandI read due South slash before I actually got into the show, while I waited for the S3 premiere )
At the time I read it, I was like, Oh, damn, MORE slashfic, YAY!! Except a lot of stories described a balding Italian detective, and I got very confused, because I honestly hadn't really noticed him in the two eps I had seen. Hey, man - "something red moving fast always draws the eye." What can I say.

Expandfinally the S3 premiere airs, and though they fucked up CKR's hair in BDTH, those HANDS got me )
So then the next ep was Eclipse and I was like HOLY FUCK THE SLASH OMFG WTF a;sldkjfal;skdjfal;sdjfasdlfjk (except of course omfg and wtf didn't exist as abbreviations back then). Ray "'do you find me attractive?' he asked the Mountie" Kowalski was so slashy and angsty - and, although lacking the dark edge and the vampires - I thought OK, I can really work with this slashy vibe!
ExpandThe third and fourth episodes of S3 due South cemented my love )

And I was like, OK, stick a fork in me, I'm DONE... I was already doing the online fandom thing for ForKni, so I just kind of slid over into dS fandom. Huzzah!

Expandbut dS fandom then was not without its bumps in the road - the Ray Wars )

Expandlove of Kowalski became love of CKR and c6d was born, though we didn't initially call it that, and HCL was the first c6d thing I watched )
Because remember, both FK and dS were the two little Canadian shows that could... and then couldn't. Both kept getting canceled at the end of each season, and then somehow revived. But each only managed to get revived after 2 cancellations. After the 3rd season of each, the networks involved (CBS on the American side) chose not to revive them, despite massive fan efforts, letter writing campaigns -- hell, for Forever Knight, we fen donated $$ to take out *billboards* in LA that could be seen by people driving in for work. All for nothing; it was never revived. And there was no Netflix to take it on, as has happened in recent years of great shows canceled by networks.
Expandmy first forays into fanfic, and how I got to see the rest of due South before it was put in syndication on TBS after it was finally canceled )

Man, I remember discovering all the slashfic for Forever Knight online and being like, ohmygod, I have hit the *jackpot* here... it's all mine... and all these people walking around have no idea people are freely trading explicit erotic m/m stories about fictional vampires online for fun - how cool is this?!

ExpandAs a veteran of the Ray Wars... eventually I got past it and even wrote Ray/Ray and Ray/Fraser/Ray )
And after a bunch of Asylum dS fen moved to LJ, all this Ray/Ray and Ray/Fraser/Ray fic started being written... and then DW came into being and people moved to DW and continued the Ray/Ray... and since I never hated Ray Vecchio (unlike the Kowalski-haters), of course I read some... and then I wrote some myself, both way back when, as well as more recently here and here. That helped me get over it.

And, like many veterans, that's about as much as I want to talk about it. I'm glad it's long past and it's not okay to character or actor bash anymore. (Although it still happens, but at least it is frowned upon now.)

Now, there were two other things that were really frowned upon when I first found dS fandom: RPF/RPS, and bad!Ben AUs. To the point that people shared these things secretly and you would only learn of these fics if you knew someone or they knew you would probably like it and wouldn't 'out' them. Back then, making "OFM" (Our Favorite Mountie, a common nickname for Fraser) into a bad guy was very, very frowned upon and a rather fringe-y thing to do. And there was no AO3 at the time.

Expandbefore AO3, the bad!Ben fic web page was all you had if you wanted a little AU walk on the wild side of Fraser - and how to get the text to come up, and find the link to the RPS/RPF page by the same fen )

I've even traveled because of my fandoms: my first trip to Toronto, alone, not even a dog - my dog had died, and I hadn't yet gotten another one - in the rally 90s was because of Forever Knight and an online "FK points of interest" list that I printed a hard copy of, and drove around and found all the points of interest SBD filming locations on my own. Wish I still had that, but it's lost to the sands and winds of time.

My last trip to Toronto was for due South RCW139, and that trip and another one were for fancons (although I am not a huge con-goer, I do occasionally go to cons... very occasionally). In between, there were a couple trips where I visited both FK and dS filming locations. I've made fandom friends - some who live very close to me, geographically; some who I met long ago and lost touch with countless computers and email accounts so - and I've just generally had so much fun and derived so much enjoyment from fannishness. And I have some bucket list items that I probably wouldn't have if it weren't for Forever Knight and due South. Yay!

So thank you, ds30below, for prompting this trip down memory lane. πŸ’œπŸ˜Š
verushka70: I took this photo of a waterfall at dusk in Olympic National Park in 2009. (waterfall)
Well, I meant to post this like at least a week ago, but RL. Sucks. Still. Even more.Expandthe many, or rather main, reason why ) But hey, I got a dog and two cats, a FT job, and some pretty awesome friends. That's more than many people - and I am grateful for all of it. My friends are my chosen family. Seriously, I routinely enter "my friends" in my daily gratitude app entries.

But the suckitude of RL was why writing for Yuletide was so important for me. Expandthis crappy past year etc )

So here are my Yuletide recs. This merely scratches the surface (1700+ fics in Yuletide 2023, yikes!) - but these are really great.
Expand22 recs in 19 fandoms - Heat (1995) (x2!), fairy tales/Boots of Buffalo Leather, Dracula - Bram Stoker (x3), The Fugitive, Fandom Exchange anthropomorphic (hysterical!!), Galaxyquest, The Good Place, The Huntsman, Historia ecclesiastica gentis Anglorum | Ecclesiastical History of the English People - Bede, It's A Wonderful Life, iZombie, Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte, The Lion in Winter (1968), Monty Python's Flying Circus: Archaeology Today, Much Ado About Nothing (2011) | Much Ado About Nothing - Shakespeare, True Detective S1, The Usual Suspects, The Waste Land - T. S. Eliot, and Weird: The Al Yankovic Story (2022) )

Here endeth the recs portion of this post! Following is standard update post stuff. As if I do that regularly... (I don't...)

~ ~ ~

Anyway. Due to my desperate need for escapism, I really enjoyed researching for, and writing, my two fic contributions to this holiday season - my first Yuletide fic evah(!), and a last-minute pinch-hit for due South Seekrit Santa:

The Sentimentalists
Fandoms: Casablanca (1942)
Words: 9,558
(it looks incomplete because it says "Chapter 1/2," but chapter 2 is a draft consisting ONLY of author's notes - the fic is complete!)
Teen And Up Audiences
No Archive Warnings Apply
Victor Laszlo/Ilsa Lund, Rick Blaine/Ilsa Lund, Rick Blaine/Victor Laszlo/Ilsa Lund, Post-Canon
Summary:
Ilsa threw her arms around him. Rick tried awkwardly to simultaneously return the hug, and gently disengage from it – Laszlo was right there – as Laszlo beamed at him, apparently uncaring.

Beamed.

Or: Rick winds up in Lisbon after Brazzaville, and is shocked to find Victor and Ilsa still there (for totally legit historical reasons, my research found).

~ and ~

In Your Philosophy
Fandoms: due South
Words: 9,211
Teen And Up Audiences
No Archive Warnings Apply
Benton Fraser/Ray Kowalski, Canon Compliant, Alternate Universe
Summary:
β€œDrink up. We may need our strength.”

β€œFor mutual auditory hallucinations?” Ray asked.

The rare jewel of a casually confident Kowalski verbal construction delighted Fraser.

β€œNo, for whatever's on the other side of that door.”

Or: from the day they first meet, Ray and Fraser go from disaster to disaster in ways neither could have imagined.

I haven't even gotten around to reading dSSS fics yet, despite my pinch-hit - there is so much I've bookmarked for Yuletide (and I signed up for it first, way before the dSSS pinch hit)! When I get to those, I'll deffo post dSSS recs too.

~ ~ ~

Here's hoping 2024 doesn't suck as bad as 2023. Although considering how it's started, that's probably putting the cart before the horse, as my Omi (grandmother) used to say.
verushka70: CKR's hands are just so damn sexy. (hand porn)
Day 5: If you could go back in time and help create a foundational work (be it book, show, movie, etc.) what would it be and what would your role be?

That's a hard one. I guess I can think of multiple shows where I wish I'd been a producer or a network exec so they wouldn't be cancelled. For some of them (due South, Forever Knight), so they wouldn't be cancelled at the end of every. Damn. Season. and have to be revived again until they got the final axe.

If I could've been part of the original Star Wars, I would've wanted to be one of the matte artists painting the starscapes and spacescapes on glass. Expandbackstory deets including reading Starlog magazine when it first came out )

I took three years of painting in high school... I think I would've really loved being a matte artist working on Star Wars.
verushka70: Kowalski puts his hands to his head (Default)
Well, as I feared, RL got in the way of participating in the June Something... So I'll have to play catch-up today, in reverse chronological order.

Day 4: What's your most treasured piece of fandom merch?

I don't actually have a lot of fandom merch Expandexplained with backstory here )

So one thing I really treasure is my Headstones T-shirt collection. Expandmore on that )

I also have a dS RCW 139: 25th anniversary convention You Must Remember This T-shirt I really like Expanddetails )

Not sure this qualifies (it's not for a specific fandom), but I have a collection of concert ticket stubs going back to the very first rock concerts I went to. Expandticket stubs and why they're so very important to me )

That's why one of the major bummers about eTickets, for me, is that you don't get a ticket stub anymore.

Day 3: What question would you like to see in The June Something?

I would want to ask:
1) What movie or series would you NEVER want rebooted?
And
B. If there's a fandom you left for reasons other than just moving on to a new fandom, what fandom did you leave, and why?
with bonus question:
What is the greatest distance you have traveled for any fandom reason? (e.g. to attend a fan con, attend a bandom concert, visit a fannish friend, visit or tour filming locations, etc)
and follow-up bonus question:
Have you done that trip (from the previous question) more than once? If so, how many times have you made it?

Day 2: What show or movie would you like rebooted? Same premise and storylines, but all new actors, showrunners, writers, technology, and social awareness?

As I commented on squidgie's June Something Day 2 post, I couldn't think of anything I really love that I would want to see rebooted, so I needed to think about it... Expandfor...reasons )

Two days later, in between RL demands, I've thought about it a lot... The only thing I really wouldn't mind seeing rebooted is The Prisoner. It was so weird in it's time (which included a lot of other trippy, weird series, and TV series that had some really trippy, weird eps *side-eyes The Avengers: Steed and Mrs. Peel, not MCU* that it's one of the few reboots I'd be interested in seeing. You could do so much more with it now, special effects-wise and technology concepts-wises - but the core idea would totally still work.

Though I think nothing could be as scary as Rover was to me when I was a child. *shudder*
verushka70: CKR laughs in this publicity photo outtake from Due South ep Strange Bedfellows. (CKR)
Signal boosting the June Something! Click the image below to see what it's about. Low pressure - just what I need now.


verushka70: CKR's hands are just so damn sexy. (hand porn)
I rarely post but I decided to participate as much as I can in squidgie's June Something. I think I can handle a post or two (or maybe every day of the June Something! I'll try really hard).

Anyhoo, the Day 1 question is:
Did you miss us? We're back! Just kidding. Question: What show or movie original cast would you like to see reunite for an update - where the intervening time has passed and we're getting a view of where they are now along with glimpses on how they got there?

1) Well, I didn't miss it because I never participated before, but I'm happy to give it a shot. And...

B. omg, the possibilities here are too many and too much fun. I second squidgie's due South update - that would be wonderful. I need to know what Kowalski and Fraser are up to now, what happened after they went to find the Hand of Franklin, and everything they did in between.

But... there are other fannish series/movies for which I'd love to see updates if I ruled the world and could make them happen.

In no particular order, I'd like to see updates on:


  • Forever Knight. If I could wave a magic wand - and despite the awful series ending (no spoilers), for which there was a fannish Virtual Fourth Season that was group written and fixed the awful ending - I would love to see what all the principal characters were up to Expandmore on that, lots more )

    Forever Knight got me into fandom. Got me into online fandom. Led me to my OTF, due South. Forever Knight also got me to go to a fan con, take a couple trips to Toronto (where it was set) (beginning my love affair with Canada/Canadiana), and got me into writing fic. My very first fanfic (slash, of course!) was a Nick/LaCroix fic. I never did write more in Forever Knight, tho I had many plot bunnies. I was content to read the tons of great fanfic already out there.

  • Lost Girl
    Like Forever Knight's series finale, the series finale (hell, the last couple seasons) was a disappointment. And why are these fantasy shows so often shoehorned into cop shows?? it's like that's all TV writers know!). But I'd love to see what Light Fae succubus Bo is up to... Expandand all her Light - and Dark! - Fae and human compatriots, too )

  • Moonlight (the one season vampire series)
    Way before he was on H5O, Alex O'Loughlin played vampire detective (see what I mean??) Mick St. John on the ill-fated (d/t the Writer's Guild strike that year) Moonlight, which the network sank as if it was intentional, by moving the broadcast day and time around to death slots like Friday nights.

    Of course Moonlight ended in no way like I would've wanted it to - and with so many loose ends. I would ignore the canon... and would love to see what Mick, Josef (the slashy possibilities!!), and Beth are up to - and what happened to Coraline.

  • V for Vendetta
    I need to know what became of Evey Hammond and Chief Inspector Finch.

  • True Detective (Season 1)
    Rust and Marty. Maggie and the girls. Need to know what happened to all of them.

    Well, that's about it... and that's plenty, I guess. πŸ™‚
verushka70: Kowalski puts his hands to his head (Default)
So a while back I was discussing the due South-related "no beta we die like caribou" tag with Ride-4ever. When she first explained it, I'd never heard of it (and was highly amused) because...

Expandyes, I live under a rock )

Yesterday I saw another "no beta we die like..." tag (no beta we die like clone troopers) on a fic (a years-old Longmire fic), and I mused to Ride, "I wonder how many different 'no beta we die like...' tags there are on AO3? I'd like to find out..." and she said something like, "You should post it on DW or as fandom meta on AO3, if you do..."

And, well, here we are. I learned that the parent tag is Not Beta Read, and I had NO IDEA how many child "no beta we die like..." tags there were.

There are ~274 (we could quibble about some quite similar versions) unique-ish "we die like" tags under the "not beta read" parent tag!

ETA: And there are SPOILERS for major and minor character death, obvs!πŸ™‚


ExpandFollow the cut for a list of every currently existing unique 'no beta we die like' tag on AO3 as of about midnight-ish Chicago time, which will no doubt change rapidly, if it hasn't already, being the moving target that AO3 tags are )

So, yeah: 247(ish) unique "no/not beta we die like" tags! That's hilarious, kooky, and fun... all things I love about fandom. And thank you, Ride-4ever, for suggesting I post this. It cracked me up and distracted me from some looming stresses. (Yes. Change is stressful. Even good changes!)

But I'm looking forward to the WINTER WEATHER ADVISORY because SNOW! Hopefully it won't be like the last much-ballyhooed Winter Weather Advisory in October, which teased us with promises of 6-12" snow... which turned out to be 2-3".

Expandwhy would anyone actually want that much snow? )
verushka70: CKR's hands are just so damn sexy. (CKR's hands)
So in the last 12 years when a ton of shit happened to me IRL (mostly repetitive strain injury-related, then a terrible combination of aging/sick parent related with job loss/layoff with returning to school/switching fields/careers), I fell of the Internet and out of fandom stuff for much of that time. I started to fall off around 2003-2004 due to severe bilateral tendinitis, and my absence was probably longest/participation was lowest from 2005 to around 2010 or 2011.

Expandexplanation of how I didn't know about terms like cis and non-binary and ace until I returned to online fandom and encountered these terms on Tumblr, with some history of my fannishness and love of slash and how the latter brought me into the former more than a couple decades ago )

But what do we call ourselves? Do we have a name outside fandom, in the larger world, or in academia or gender studies? Do women who love slash have a term specific just to the love of slash? (Was there ever an archaic term for this, like from centuries ago? because that would be so cool... though I doubt that women of yore were able to be "out"/open about how they felt about seeing two dudes together, at least not if they found it super-sexy and squee-worthy.)

If there is a term for "women who enjoy contemplating/imagining two men being romantically &/or sexually involved with each other," is that terminology dependent on how we identify sexuality-wise? (given that there seem to be as many LGBTQ women who dig slash as there are vanilla het chicks, possibly more, that seems unlikely)

Is liking slash it's own thing, separate and apart from gender and sexuality? (Are there male slash fen? who aren't LGBTQ? IDEK -- I truly don't. Would this term -- if one other than "slash fan/fen" exists -- apply to those guys as well as us females, or would any such terms distinguish between the genders of the slash-admirers?

Maybe cis and non-binary and ace are terminology formed within that particular confluence of university studies and fandom (that's certainly where I was and what I was doing when I got into fandom).

But "slash" was a term before people were able to get slash stories through email lists or off the 'net. (I am familiar with the history of the term "slash" and origins in fandoms like original ST or MUNCLE.)

Yaoi (as a term) became popular in the late 90s, but that more describes the genre itself, than us women who love it. (And I can't say I personally relate much to yaoi for the simple fact that 99.9 times out of 100, I am not into boy/boy or tween/tween m/m... For me personally, at least one of the "m"s in "m/m" has to be an actual adult man -- YMMV -- Plus I'm not a manga/anime fan, unless you count a crush on Racer X when I was about 6 years old... I totally ditched Speed Racer for Racer X *g*!).

While such a term might be specifically about fans who like to contemplate m/m romance/sex, I would think it Could not be exclusively about watching/contemplating m/m couples being romantic &/or having sex -- because so much slashfic in so many different fandoms is PG rated with no sex at all, or primarily portrays the m/m relationship as deep partnership/friendship expanding into the realm of more than platonic love, yet less than explicitly sexual.

So... It's an interesting question, and I really don't know the answer. This isn't the first time I've pondered this in the last several months... it's just that I finally bothered to post the question.

I suppose I am fine with the term "slash fan" -- I just wondered if there was another term.

(I do object somewhat to the term "slasher" even though it is most expedient, but only because of the potentially violent connotations of "slashing" and "slashers.")
verushka70: Kowalski puts his hands to his head (Default)
No, no, Starbuck!
::sobs::
Kara's mom reminded me a lot of my dad -- his stated efforts to "toughen" me up--
Expandminor SPOILERS for last night's BSG ep )
Frakkin' tearjerker episode in ways I totally didn't expect. Good to have CKR/Leoben back... but would have preferred better circumstances.
::sniff::
verushka70: Kowalski puts his hands to his head (Default)
I keep telling myself... it's almost over, it's almost over, it's almost over... I passed pediatric nursing. I failed the final with a 70%, but I paC)ssed the class with a 77%. I have never worked so frakkin' hard for such a shitty grade: my one and only C in nursing school. Expandboring crap about everyone getting Cs and us losing 2 more people )

I survived peds by (1) insane textbook reading, studying, review books, and practice questions and quizzes, and (B) watching about 4 hours of TV per week. Those 4 hours are inviolate. I don't talk on the phone, I don't try to read or study, I just watch my shows. The shows are BSG on Sunday night, Veronica Mars on Tuesday nights, Dirt after Veronica Mars, and CSI (LV) on Thursday nights. Oh, and I watched a bootleg DVD of Last King of Scotland Saturday night with my bf. I can see why Forest Whitaker (sp?) won the Oscar. I didn't watch any part of the Oscars. I read about them the next day in someone's newspaper.
Expandcomplaints and praise about my shows this week so far )
And Veronica Mars. wtf, Logan!?! What happened to all that "lives ruined, blood shed" epic story stuff with Veronica? Now you're just whizz-bang done with Veronica, and already after Parker? Not even trying with Veronica? I admit, Veronica thinks she knows everything -- and she doesn't -- and her brittleness is starting to grate (has been). But you already know she's a hard sell and a tough cookie -- she always was! That's why you love her. Don't go for Parker. God. I mean, Parker's all right, but... eh, never mind.

I have no control over any of this... except in fanfic, of course. Of which I've written... almost none! Just about 2/3 of a HCL/FTWHTWD Joe Dick/Jerry Bines xover story, that I had to put away at the beginning of February. And I surprised myself: it's got pegging! I don't even know how that happened... it just took on a life of it's own, so I let it go where it wanted to go. I have to finish it; I dropped it at the beginning of February because, honestly, I couldn't do that and study peds too. Fortunately I'm told that psych nursing isn't too hard. So I feel the need to immediately slack and work on my story. Ironically, in our management class this afternoon, they lectured on time management and tools for overcoming procrastination and time-wasting: prioritize, set goals, break big jobs into smaller tasks, develop the habit of finishing things you start. Well. As soon as I heard that in the lecture, I immediately thought of all my WIPs and unfinished series and stories and whatnot. So it looks like I'll be applying time management to... the area of my life that least needs it.

Yay. Much rejoicing. :P
verushka70: Kowalski puts his hands to his head (hookah)
Well. I finally updated a version of a story I wrote five freakin' years ago. http://www.squidge.org/dsa/archive/16/bitlike.html I re-edited it to submit to the Writer's Contest for Zebracon 17. Which I barely attended because I was so damn busy with school (I just visited the dealer's room, and that was about it). (As I horribly was this past weekend). I was shocked as hell when I won 1st place! But then, I don't even know if people look at the DSA anymore. I've been so out of it for so long. And no one is reading this blog, anyway... it's more for me than for public consumption. I've been a diarist since, like, age 9... and I do tend to talk to myself, to think aloud.

The DSA Squidge archivist was so kind as to remove myold story and let me upload the newer version. I may yet get back into the swing of things, writing fanfic. I know Due South is dead and only had three seasons... but... but... it was such a great show. And so... inspiring of slash. Not that other shows aren't or weren't. And, hey, slash isn't all I want... smoldering, fucked-up impossible love (Buffy/Angel, Buffy/Spike) is always good. So is great UST ala Scully/Mulder. Angst, tension: bring it on.

But also, the funny shows. The weird shows. Dead Like Me. Lexx. I'm even considering writing something really obscure (as long as no one is looking, what difference does it make?): a Hard Core Logo/For Those Who Hunt The Wounded Down Joe Dick/Jerry Bines xover. I mean, no one will want to read this except someone from http://www.yuletidetreasure.org/fandoms.shtml --but it's a challenge, and I've decided to set it during the time that Billy left and Joe was doing "some acoustic gigs" (or nothing, depending on whether you found his statement believable). I'm going to try to write that over xmas vacation. Which starts Dec. 13 for me and goes until Jan. 17. One blissful month to decompress from the hell of nursing school.
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