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More GIFs to illustrate my fascination and headcanon!


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This is why the perfect, polite, well-mannered Thank-you-kindly canon Fraser of dS feels… a bit “off,” to me. There is anger in Fraser. He has the clear potential to do bad things to bad people (who, let’s face it, completely deserve it, plus more).

I love this Fraser. This is my head-canon Fraser. He has suffered loss after loss (shall we talk about his ACE score? it would be kind of high, don’t you think?), starting very young. He appears fine on the surface, but let’s not forget that (absurd) psychological test with the Rorschach images in S3 episode Strange Bedfellows. He is not okay. He’s not fine. His psychological state is eventually deemed “acceptable” in that ep - but, c'mon: “acceptable” is not exactly well-adjusted or healthy. “Acceptable” is like getting a C on a paper when you should have gotten an A or at least a B.

And ftr, of course he is not okay! That’s completely understandable given his history: an adult man who lost his mother at age 6, was subsequently abandoned by his grief-stricken father (a child does not understand why a parent leaves/is gone - only that they left), whose entire life is uprooted to move to live with his grandparents (and let’s just point out that his grandmother’s ghost slaps Fraser, Sr - who is himself a ghost - in Letting Go! if you presume that, like most grandparents, she mellowed with age, and that is the mellower version of her - what was she like with child!Fraser??)… the constant moving/losing friends/having to make new friends/being the new kid because they were mobile librarians…

That is all canon. But there is never any canonical mention of therapy or counseling, which a kid with such a background (or his adult self) would surely need to process the many traumatic changes he experienced at such a young age, and develop some healthy coping mechanisms (because the ones you sort of fall into as a child - I certainly wouldn’t call it “choosing” when as a kid, all you’re trying to do is find a way to cope that WORKS - aren’t usually the healthiest in a set of circumstances this bad.

Then, in his early adulthood and RCMP career… the Victoria thing happens. Of course Fraser is not okay. (And that is okay.) How on earth could he be?

I meant to get these in on time for the ds_snippets amnesty challenge, but for reasons that don't need exploring at this juncture, that didn't happen. So... bummer. So... they're here instead. Made possible by akamine_chan, who graciously beta-ed.

( they stood together--DS, G, gen, 265 words )




( a huntress--DS, G, gen, 257 words )




( return the favor/bitter reward--HCL/FTWHTWD, Joe/Jerry, NC-17, 277 words )