smutty fic vs. pathophysiology of yesterday's patient

[verushka70]

At any other time, this would be a no-brainer: how should I spend my evening -- should I write HCL fic (and edit/finish the HCL fic I already have in the works, hello!)? Or should I write out the pathophysiology of the patient I had yesterday for my clinical instructor?

Unfortunately, life being what it is these days (nursing school), I'll be writing the pathophys. Cuz it's due tomorrow morning. So frustrating. And I'll have to look up the nursing interventions and nursing care/considerations/assessments etc. and it's going to be awfully tedious and I don't even care because it's not like I'll ever see the patient again or even get a chance to implement a care plan or intervention.

Maybe after I get the tedious school related stuff done, I'll reward myself with editing, re-writing, reading, and re-reading HCL fic. Or some DS insta-porn, F/K of course, that's been on my mind. Or that HCL/FTWHTWD xover fic that's been in the back of my mind for months now.

Or, in a bolder move, I could go back to that bar I went to last Friday (first time in a bar in, like, I dunno, two or three months? Before xmas, for sure...). And see if that cute bartender (who is probably in his late 30s/early 40s) who gave me a Marlboro light by sticking it in the ashtray when I got up from my bar stool and walked past him to go to the bathroom, is actually interested.

Hmmm. Yep, must be that point in my cycle. Thinking about writing/re-writing/improving NC-17 fanfic (or just writing insta-porn) or finding a new friend, when I should be thinking about school. Or cleaning my sloppy apartment. Or just about anything but sex. But, hey, the thoughts of sex give me good fic ideas and inspiration. So... well, I'm not sorry I have the urge, only that I can't do anything with it right now. I will not call my ex... I will not call my ex... we're done with those booty calls... (she told herself)

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[malnpudl.livejournal.com]

I know RL has to come first, and that's as it should be... but I must admit that I'll be very happy to read more of your HCL WIP, whenever the next bit is ready.

But, hey, the thoughts of sex give me good fic ideas and inspiration

And this can only be a good thing! (She says in a blatant disply of self-interest. *g*)

I will not call my ex... I will not call my ex... we're done with those booty calls... (she told herself)

Ah, yes. I remember that stage. Ambivalence. Yeah. (Shades of RayK and Stella.)

Hang in there.

dammit

[verushka70.livejournal.com]

the pathophys doc quit unexpectedly ("the application Word has quit unexpectedly") at 11pm, after 2.5+ hours of work on it. I lost everything, all 4 pages. Think: sledgehammer to Mac. but I didn't. instead I watched parts of Dance Me Outside with Hugh Dillon, then a few Headstones videos, all thanks to jcjoeyfreak (http://www.livejournal.com/users/jcjoeyfreak/) who offered, before I even asked, if I was up for them when I drooled over her many screencaps of the younger Hugh in DMO. what a sweetie. LJ ppl are so cool.

at midnight I began again (and set Word to autosave ever 2 freakin' minutes). finished at 3am. watched Duck/Dan snippets of WW. I blame brooklinegirl (http://brooklinegirl.livejournal.com/). wait, no -- I don't blame her, I credit her with inspiring WW watching, thanks to her story last cigarettes (http://brooklinegirl.livejournal.com/317183.html) which was so WW and so good.

I have spring break coming (starts 3/18). hope to get the HCL WIP edited/finished. hope to finalize a HCL fix exchange story. hope to write another for that challenge because it was supposed to be less angsty than it turned out. so I must de-angstify and write cheerier Joe/Billy if I can (so hard for an angst-hound like myself). hope also to finalize Tight, the DS F/K fic. and want to start the HCL/FTWHTWD Joe Dick/Jerry Bines story I've been mulling for months.

so, never fear. fic is a-comin'. if I LJ-ed less, that would help... and if I was less verbose, that'd help a lot. I really need to practice short (1,000 words) fic. maybe I'll set myself such a challenge this weekend, and string some together. then there's always stop_drop_porn (http://community.livejournal.com/stop_drop_porn/) -- like I needed another distraction...

but damn it feels good to vent on LJ. I'm trying not to take stress out on my friends, classmates, family. but something's got to give, so it "gives" on LJ -- or I do.

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[verushka70.livejournal.com]

I put a screened comment on your comment in here... I hope I am doing this right; I never screened a comment before. I just wanted it to be private and I don't know your email address, just your LJ stuff. I have to go offline now, and finish my reserch paper. But I should be back late tonight (Monday) or tomorrow (Tuesday).

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[malnpudl.livejournal.com]

The answer is YES! *g*

LCBERGSTROM at COX dot NET

I'll look forward to hearing from you. :-)

oh, THANK YOU!!

[verushka70.livejournal.com]

You're saving my ass in a major way! I'll try to send 'em tonight (late, obviously...).