verushka70: Modified publicity still puts Fraser and RayK closer together in a slashy moment. (DS slash)
Last week did not go well for me, so I'm catching up on the ds30below fanwork recs theme of last week. Hope that's okay...

There are a couple of what we used to call "bad!Ben" fics I return to again and again. Because although he is a dark AU Fraser in these fics, I feel there are slight glimmers of these dark AU Frasers in canon. why the hell should you read a dark AU Fraser? - because the angst, if you're into that - among other things - is FANTASTIC )

But if you cannot imagine a bad AU version of Fraser, or the mere thought of such a version of him is abhorrent, please do not read any further. You have been warned.

You Say (That's Not An Answer)
by seperis Relationships: Fraser/Victoria, Fraser/Victoria/Kowalski, Fraser/Kowalski.
This is the Fraser who got on the train with Victoria... and what happens to Kowalski, tasked with catching him. Major ensemble characters are here, obliquely in some cases - all also darker AU versions of themselves. This is a perfect storm of AU canon.

No Archive warnings apply, nobody dies... but don't read it unless you're willing to be convinced. If you are willing, though, your dark heart of hearts will be richly rewarded: it's angsty, disturbing - and disturbingly hot.

Since You've Gone (I've Been Lost Without A Trace) by helens78 is actually a Fraser POV remix of another excellent darkfic (spuffyduds' Used To Think I Knew You, which is from Kowalski's POV, and which I also highly recommend). Archive Warnings Apply to both the original fic and the remix - please heed the tags and warnings!

If the Archive warnings don't scare you off these fics, I think you'll find that helens78's fic is deeply insightful about the Fraser in spuffy's original fic (which, being Kowalski's POV, it can't be). helens78's portrayal of Fraser's depersonalizationl/dissociation is especially well done.

My heart breaks for the damaged Fraser damaging others and himself in these fics. I guess you could call it empathy for the devil.
verushka70: Modified publicity still puts Fraser and RayK closer together in a slashy moment. (DS slash)
I snippet-ficced again. It seems to be all my brain can handle lately.

Title: Serge Surge
Fandom and Pairing: due South, Benton Fraser/Ray Kowalski
Rating: Teen
Length: 300 words
Prompt: Challenge 41
* red
* wax
* spoon
* floor
* “My mouth is full of secrets that I’m too afraid to tell”

Also fills the prompt "Ten," for International Fanworks Day 2024

Summary:
He takes chances, sure. Ray can admit adrenaline is a wave he surfs.

Serge Surge on AO3


No Archive Warnings Apply
verushka70: Modified publicity still puts Fraser and RayK closer together in a slashy moment. (F/K)
I'm not used to this fanfic bingo thing. Like, for all the years I've been in fandom and fannish... I've never before done any kind of fannish bingo. Which seems like an egregious omission on my part, but there's no intent or reason behind it - it just never happened for some reason.

So I'm super excited to finally be doing a bingo AND it's for leaving comments on fics! So even if I don't get bingo, everybody wins anyway: I get to read fic, fic authors get happy comments from me, I get to fill out a square on my bingo card, AND I get to post fic recs!

Which leads me to my first square on my bingo card and my first rec:

a work from a drama canon a fic between 1-5k a work posted in 2024 a work you've left kudos on a fic with multiple chapters
a work by someone you've come across recently 5 drabbles (works of 100 words each) a work from an action/adventure canon a work posted in 2021 a work posted in 2020
a oneshot a fic you reread often FREE SPACE a work that amused you a fic that's under 1k
a work posted in 2023 a work from a movie canon a fic you first read over 1 year ago a work that has two of your favorite tags a canon compliant work
a work posted in 2014 a work posted in 2010 a work by someone who's given you a kudos or a comment a work posted in 2011 a work from an event from 2023


My work posted in 2021 fic is Heaven help a fool who falls in love - and is so spot-on with Kowalski's and Fraser's characterizations that I want to lie down in this fic, pull it over my head, and snuggle happily down into it - it's just that good. It gets them so damned well. It's a combination of visceral, sensual, and cinematic in its descriptions; their voices are absolutely spot-on; it gets angsty (which I love); and they get a happy ending (my favorite kind of angst!). The POV is Ray's but it's so uniquely done, all from the nonverbal body language that we know from canon Kowalski is "particularly sensitive to" - his and Fraser's body language, and how it cuts through all the verbal (almost). It's told so well, with an intense economy of words and descriptions - I can't believe this author has only written two dS fics because, holy cow: there should be more, more, and more due South fic by this author.

Yay, first bingo square (and another AO3 bookmark!)!
verushka70: I took this photo of a waterfall at dusk in Olympic National Park in 2009. (PNW)
So FRTDNEATJ my output hasn't been great fic-wise the last year, and for the same 2023 reasons, I never did my 2022 fic roundup in 2023 (and I also didn't post any of it to the ds-noticeboard DW, sigh). I thought I'd better get that outta the way (& kill a Fannish Fifty while I'm at it, since it's about fanfic).

I unofficially and officially started the Fannish Fifty )

Looking back over these fics, I realize I didn't write a lot of fic, but I wrote a lot more words than I realized. long story short, more than 66,500 words across 10 fics in 5 fandoms in 2 years, which really, REALLY surprised me )

7 of the 10 fics are dSc6d; 6 of those 7 are due South.đź’ś I have so many WIPs of different fandoms though, that I want to get into (or get back into). Sigh! So many fandoms, so little time.

I guess I'll list the fic roundup in reverse chronological order.

My 2023 fic output )

* * *
My 2022 fanfic roundup )

I'm hoping this year to just maintain some level of fic output. My word count the last two years is small potatoes (which is also the title of one of my favorite X-Files episodes!) - it's really NOTHING compared to really prolific writers (or even to my more prolific past ficcing). But it was a lot more than I realized - and a lot more than in the preceding few years (including 2019, when being an exhausted pandemic RN was not yet a thing)... So, for me, especially under the shitty circumstances of this past year? I'm calling it a win.
verushka70: Modified publicity still puts Fraser and RayK closer together in a slashy moment. (DS slash)
Well, I'm gonna try this Fannish Fifty thing. So, counting my Yuletide recs (& gifts, given & received!) post as FF #1, this is FF #2:

amnesty snippet: Enough (due South, Fraser/Ray of your choice)

Right now it's only on the dsc6dsnippets DW... I'll put it on AO3 later this week or weekend.
verushka70: I took this photo of a waterfall at dusk in Olympic National Park in 2009. (waterfall)
Well, I meant to post this like at least a week ago, but RL. Sucks. Still. Even more.the many, or rather main, reason why ) But hey, I got a dog and two cats, a FT job, and some pretty awesome friends. That's more than many people - and I am grateful for all of it. My friends are my chosen family. Seriously, I routinely enter "my friends" in my daily gratitude app entries.

But the suckitude of RL was why writing for Yuletide was so important for me. this crappy past year etc )

So here are my Yuletide recs. This merely scratches the surface (1700+ fics in Yuletide 2023, yikes!) - but these are really great.
22 recs in 19 fandoms - Heat (1995) (x2!), fairy tales/Boots of Buffalo Leather, Dracula - Bram Stoker (x3), The Fugitive, Fandom Exchange anthropomorphic (hysterical!!), Galaxyquest, The Good Place, The Huntsman, Historia ecclesiastica gentis Anglorum | Ecclesiastical History of the English People - Bede, It's A Wonderful Life, iZombie, Jane Eyre - Charlotte Bronte, The Lion in Winter (1968), Monty Python's Flying Circus: Archaeology Today, Much Ado About Nothing (2011) | Much Ado About Nothing - Shakespeare, True Detective S1, The Usual Suspects, The Waste Land - T. S. Eliot, and Weird: The Al Yankovic Story (2022) )

Here endeth the recs portion of this post! Following is standard update post stuff. As if I do that regularly... (I don't...)

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Anyway. Due to my desperate need for escapism, I really enjoyed researching for, and writing, my two fic contributions to this holiday season - my first Yuletide fic evah(!), and a last-minute pinch-hit for due South Seekrit Santa:

The Sentimentalists
Fandoms: Casablanca (1942)
Words: 9,558
(it looks incomplete because it says "Chapter 1/2," but chapter 2 is a draft consisting ONLY of author's notes - the fic is complete!)
Teen And Up Audiences
No Archive Warnings Apply
Victor Laszlo/Ilsa Lund, Rick Blaine/Ilsa Lund, Rick Blaine/Victor Laszlo/Ilsa Lund, Post-Canon
Summary:
Ilsa threw her arms around him. Rick tried awkwardly to simultaneously return the hug, and gently disengage from it – Laszlo was right there – as Laszlo beamed at him, apparently uncaring.

Beamed.

Or: Rick winds up in Lisbon after Brazzaville, and is shocked to find Victor and Ilsa still there (for totally legit historical reasons, my research found).

~ and ~

In Your Philosophy
Fandoms: due South
Words: 9,211
Teen And Up Audiences
No Archive Warnings Apply
Benton Fraser/Ray Kowalski, Canon Compliant, Alternate Universe
Summary:
“Drink up. We may need our strength.”

“For mutual auditory hallucinations?” Ray asked.

The rare jewel of a casually confident Kowalski verbal construction delighted Fraser.

“No, for whatever's on the other side of that door.”

Or: from the day they first meet, Ray and Fraser go from disaster to disaster in ways neither could have imagined.

I haven't even gotten around to reading dSSS fics yet, despite my pinch-hit - there is so much I've bookmarked for Yuletide (and I signed up for it first, way before the dSSS pinch hit)! When I get to those, I'll deffo post dSSS recs too.

~ ~ ~

Here's hoping 2024 doesn't suck as bad as 2023. Although considering how it's started, that's probably putting the cart before the horse, as my Omi (grandmother) used to say.
verushka70: CKR's hands are just so damn sexy. (hand porn)
I rarely post but I decided to participate as much as I can in squidgie's June Something. I think I can handle a post or two (or maybe every day of the June Something! I'll try really hard).

Anyhoo, the Day 1 question is:
Did you miss us? We're back! Just kidding. Question: What show or movie original cast would you like to see reunite for an update - where the intervening time has passed and we're getting a view of where they are now along with glimpses on how they got there?

1) Well, I didn't miss it because I never participated before, but I'm happy to give it a shot. And...

B. omg, the possibilities here are too many and too much fun. I second squidgie's due South update - that would be wonderful. I need to know what Kowalski and Fraser are up to now, what happened after they went to find the Hand of Franklin, and everything they did in between.

But... there are other fannish series/movies for which I'd love to see updates if I ruled the world and could make them happen.

In no particular order, I'd like to see updates on:


  • Forever Knight. If I could wave a magic wand - and despite the awful series ending (no spoilers), for which there was a fannish Virtual Fourth Season that was group written and fixed the awful ending - I would love to see what all the principal characters were up to more on that, lots more )

    Forever Knight got me into fandom. Got me into online fandom. Led me to my OTF, due South. Forever Knight also got me to go to a fan con, take a couple trips to Toronto (where it was set) (beginning my love affair with Canada/Canadiana), and got me into writing fic. My very first fanfic (slash, of course!) was a Nick/LaCroix fic. I never did write more in Forever Knight, tho I had many plot bunnies. I was content to read the tons of great fanfic already out there.

  • Lost Girl
    Like Forever Knight's series finale, the series finale (hell, the last couple seasons) was a disappointment. And why are these fantasy shows so often shoehorned into cop shows?? it's like that's all TV writers know!). But I'd love to see what Light Fae succubus Bo is up to... and all her Light - and Dark! - Fae and human compatriots, too )

  • Moonlight (the one season vampire series)
    Way before he was on H5O, Alex O'Loughlin played vampire detective (see what I mean??) Mick St. John on the ill-fated (d/t the Writer's Guild strike that year) Moonlight, which the network sank as if it was intentional, by moving the broadcast day and time around to death slots like Friday nights.

    Of course Moonlight ended in no way like I would've wanted it to - and with so many loose ends. I would ignore the canon... and would love to see what Mick, Josef (the slashy possibilities!!), and Beth are up to - and what happened to Coraline.

  • V for Vendetta
    I need to know what became of Evey Hammond and Chief Inspector Finch.

  • True Detective (Season 1)
    Rust and Marty. Maggie and the girls. Need to know what happened to all of them.

    Well, that's about it... and that's plenty, I guess. 🙂
verushka70: Modified publicity still puts Fraser and RayK closer together in a slashy moment. (DS slash)

Made using screen caps. Just something off the cuff. Click on each to enlarge.



verushka70: CKR laughs in this publicity photo outtake from Due South ep Strange Bedfellows. (RayK)
Recently, Ride_4ever reminded me that a past dS fic (on a 10-year-old LJ comm related to DS_Match), "I'm here...", wasn't up on AO3. So I imported it to AO3.

Rating: Mature
Category: M/M
Fandom: due South
Relationship: Benton Fraser/Ray Kowalski
Additional Tags: Touching, Angst with a Happy Ending
Originally published: 2007-11-18 (backdated)
Words: 4698
Title: I'm here. You're here. They're gone.

Summary:

Ray shakes his head, closing his eyes, as if to say he has the patience of a saint but he won't forever.

"Frase -- stop -- don't apologize." He clenches his jaw, unclenches his jaw, runs a hand through his hair and opens his eyes to stare moodily at Fraser. "Get in here."

Story at AO3
verushka70: Kowalski puts his hands to his head (holds-Walt-down)
So I ficced some more in January... I'm trying to hang on to that momentum.

~ ~ ~

(Not Quite) Roughing It (on AO3)
Fandoms: Longmire (TV)

Slash - Walt Longmire/Henry Standing Bear
Characters - Walt Longmire, Henry Standing Bear, The Ferg (Longmire), Victoria "Vic" Moretti,
Tags - Affection, Nature, Camping

Teen And Up Audiences, No Warnings Apply

Summary: They stare into the fire, tucked snugly against each other despite layers and jackets. Their arms tighten around each other. Henry looks up at the inky, moonless sky, millions of bright stars hemmed in only by the dark silhouettes of the tree tops around them and the mountains beyond.

Words: 2,549

(Not Quite) Roughing It (on AO3)
Fandoms: Longmire (TV)

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A Suitable Alternative by verushka70
Fandoms: due South
Slash - Benton Fraser/Ray Kowalski
Characters - Diefenbaker, Benton Fraser, Ray Kowalski
Alternate Universe - Vampire, Community: ds_snippets | dsc6dsnippets

Explicit, No Warnings Apply

Summary: “Take it.” Ray shoves his wrist higher under Fraser’s nose, the scent of his blood enticing. “Your eyes -- you're fanged out –- drink!”

Words: 298

A Suitable Alternative (on AO3)

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Finally, Goran Višnjić: So I've been watching Timeless... and, wow, guh, hot older 40 man. Like, Tyler Hoechlin-ish (almost complete with the eyes, though they don't light his eyes properly to highlight their strange color), but almost 20 yrs older. HOT. I'll have to go back and watch all the ER eps I never saw him in because after I became an RN I stopped watching all medical shows because everything is so medically inaccurate 99% of the time and MDs are continually shown doing stuff they never do which is almost always done by RNs (like administering chemo, drawing blood, starting IVs, chest compressions, giving resuscitation meds... I could go on... sure, the doctor orders the meds or whatnot and intubates the patient for resuscitation, but RNs will keep you alive until he/she gets you intubated).

But supposedly ER had an RN consultant for accuracy. So I might give it a shot now. Because Goran is muy caliente. I think the first thing I saw Goran in was Practical Magic with Sandra Bullock and Nicole Kidman, but even though he was hot in that, he was also violent and creepy. Maybe I should've watched more ER -- it had some critical
acclaim, iirc -- but I was too busy watching ST:TNG, X-Files, and BTVS (not to mention Forever Knight and due South in the 90s), lol.

Prime-time medical soap opera wasn't on my radar... if it's not scifi or supernatural, I gravitate to cop shows, it seems -- or vampire cop shows, lol, since slightly more than a decade after Forever Knight was cancelled, Moonlight came along with Jason Dohring and Alex O'Loughlin both playing vampires. Ironically, Moonlight was the first thing I saw
Abigail Spencer in, and now she is a lead character on Timeless, which is the show that has rekindled my lust for Goran Višnjić.

FULL CIRCLE! \o/ My ADD brain <3s that.
verushka70: Kowalski puts his hands to his head (holds-Walt-down)
Fandom-wise, I was not very active in 2016, but that's nothing new despite ongoing OT/PT for carpal tunnel and lateral epicondylitis since October. I managed some fic scattered across different fandoms. While I didn't finish the WIPs I wantedto finish, I finished a couple old ones, and with my lowered expectations for myself this past year, I am okay with that. I am surprised I wrote as much as I did. So, yay.

Population: 3 minus 1
Fandoms: Longmire (TV)
Words: 9,317
Explicit
M/M, F/M/M
Tags: Walt Longmire/Henry Standing Bear, Martha Longmire/Walt Longmire/Henry Standing Bear, Long-Term Relationship(s), Grief/Mourning, Angst with a Happy Ending, Canon-Typical Violence, Explicit Sexual Content, Slow Build, OTP Feels, Threesome - F/M/M, Angst and Porn


Henry thought back to Walt silently drinking, his gaze a weight that repeatedly drew Henry's attention until the rest of the bar faded away, as if their stares at each other were the only thing in the world.


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Breath and Blood for MK_Yujji (due South Seekrit Santa 2016)
Fandoms: due South
Words: 14,048
Teen
M/M, F/M
Tags: Teen And Up Audiences, Benton Fraser/Ray Kowalski, Benton Fraser/Victoria Metcalf, Alternate Universe - Supernatural Elements


Fraser seems to casually endanger his partners in wildly bizarre ways, as if he's bullet-proof &/or wearing a cape. Kowalski may have figured out why -- and also why Fraser doesn't always come out unscathed.

~ ~ ~

OMG, why aren't more people watching Longmire? I get that instead of a chronic low grade ongoing slashiness in every ep, Longmire instead has chronic barely-there slash with sudden spectacular eruptions in particularly slashy eps. But shows with less slashiness have garnered bigger slash fandoms. Maybe it is because both male leads are over 45 (or 50) years old and both have some gray hair, including gray chest hair on one of them? (and kudos for NOT waxing, dyeing, or weaving it!!) because the Tumblr crowd skews so young that old dudes are probably considered skeezy? I don't know. But ageism is alive and well in so many other areas of life and society, why not this one, too.
verushka70: Kowalski puts his hands to his head (suit-hands)
Since my tendonitis/epicondylitis got a bit better, I tried to light a fire under my own ass to finish two long WIPs.

I posted on AO3 excerpts of two longer fics -- one a dS WIP(RayK/Stella, RayK/Sam Franklin, eventual Fraser/Kowalski), and one a TW WIP (Derek/Stiles).

Then I wrote a Teen Wolf/True Detective Derek Hale/Rust Cohle crossover... uh, whoops? But I feel they would understand each other, these two. They have both lost so much, had so much grief.

All are technically unbeta-ed, though the dS WIP has been beta-ed somewhat (thanks Ride_Forever!).

Just Act Normal
Fandoms: due South
Words: 11,588
Explicit
M/M, F/M
Tags: Sam Franklin/Ray Kowalski, Ray Kowalski/Stella Kowalski,
Rimming, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex, First Time Blow Jobs, Sexual
Confusion, Bisexuality, Infidelity, First Gay Sex, Angst

Summary: Stella was gone. Sam was around. A lot. Ray realized pretty soon that he had a crush on Sam. A terrible, hopeful crush.


This Is What You Do (To Me)
Fandoms: Teen Wolf (TV)
Words: 2,163
Explicit
M/M
Tags: Underage,
Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski
Masturbation, Voyeurism, Self-Denial, Come play

Summary: Derek's surprise visits usually involve shaking Stiles down for research. Anything else is an afterthought (chain-yanking). Stiles is fed up with it. So when he finds Derek in his room again, he shows him the door. Or, rather, window. At least, that was the plan.


Beautiful (Beast)
Fandoms: Teen Wolf (TV), True Detective
Words: 4,465
Explicit
M/M
Tags: Rustin "Rust" Cohle/Derek Hale, Derek Hale, Laura Hale, Rustin
"Rust" Cohle, Blow Jobs, Anal Fingering, Anonymous Sex

Summary: "Show me," Rust murmurs. Derek lets his wolf out a little, just the eyes, the heavy brow, the fangs and sideburns. "Beautiful beast," Rust whispers. He slides down the back of the bathroom door to his knees. When he looks up with glassy eyes, Derek realizes it isn't just Rust kneeling at his feet. It's Rust and someone else. Rust has shifted, in his own way.

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