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verushka70I'm so bummed to hear that John Hughes died. I can definitely say that some of his movies defined angst and may have inspired or at least helped fuel my angst-hound tendencies. I mean, who doesn't sympathize with Duckie (Jon Cryer) in Pretty in Pink or with Watts (Mary Stuart Masterson) in Some Kind of Wonderful?
Also... worked last night. And it did not suck. Well, we had one cardiac arrest who came in that we were unable to save, although we made heroic efforts. But other than that, it was a smooth night, fast-paced enough to make the time pass quickly, but not so insanely busy that you have a zillion charts to finish when you get off the floor. I was out of there by 3:15 (officially off the floor at 3am) and at the grocery store (yes, it's 24 hrs) by 3:45am. Home by 4:30am. The cat food my cats love was still on sale at $2.99/7 lb. bag. So I bought 6!
Per the psychiatrist, who I had a social worker get ahold of (because I don't see him again until two weeks from now), I wanted to know if I should increase my meds. As of April, he'd had me dosing down because he said he thought my depression had a large seasonal component to it. Which I agree with; my mood improved substantially when I changed from a 6:30pm-7am shift to a 2:30pm-3am shift -- one where I actually see the sun in winter.
By the time my mom died at the end of June, I had dosed down to 150mg/day of bupropion (extended release) from the normal dose of 450mg/day. When I talked to the social worker after my mom died, I asked him if he thought I should continue dosing down to nothing, which was the original plan. He suggested not changing anything. Which I agreed with and seemed prudent, given what I was going through.
Well, he contacted the psychiatrist for me again last week because I told him, I just am having a lot of trouble dragging myself out of bed, and trouble sleeping (or falling asleep -- once I am asleep, I can't seem to stop), and I wasn't sure if I should keep my meds the same or not, but I've become extremely irritable which I've only recently learned from personal experience is a symptom of depression. The social worker called me back Friday and said the psychiatrist recommended I dose back up to 450mg/day of bupropion extended release. So I did.
I managed to get quite a bit of stuff done in the next few days. So apparently, that worked. Will continue. What else am I gonna do?
Also... worked last night. And it did not suck. Well, we had one cardiac arrest who came in that we were unable to save, although we made heroic efforts. But other than that, it was a smooth night, fast-paced enough to make the time pass quickly, but not so insanely busy that you have a zillion charts to finish when you get off the floor. I was out of there by 3:15 (officially off the floor at 3am) and at the grocery store (yes, it's 24 hrs) by 3:45am. Home by 4:30am. The cat food my cats love was still on sale at $2.99/7 lb. bag. So I bought 6!
Per the psychiatrist, who I had a social worker get ahold of (because I don't see him again until two weeks from now), I wanted to know if I should increase my meds. As of April, he'd had me dosing down because he said he thought my depression had a large seasonal component to it. Which I agree with; my mood improved substantially when I changed from a 6:30pm-7am shift to a 2:30pm-3am shift -- one where I actually see the sun in winter.
By the time my mom died at the end of June, I had dosed down to 150mg/day of bupropion (extended release) from the normal dose of 450mg/day. When I talked to the social worker after my mom died, I asked him if he thought I should continue dosing down to nothing, which was the original plan. He suggested not changing anything. Which I agreed with and seemed prudent, given what I was going through.
Well, he contacted the psychiatrist for me again last week because I told him, I just am having a lot of trouble dragging myself out of bed, and trouble sleeping (or falling asleep -- once I am asleep, I can't seem to stop), and I wasn't sure if I should keep my meds the same or not, but I've become extremely irritable which I've only recently learned from personal experience is a symptom of depression. The social worker called me back Friday and said the psychiatrist recommended I dose back up to 450mg/day of bupropion extended release. So I did.
I managed to get quite a bit of stuff done in the next few days. So apparently, that worked. Will continue. What else am I gonna do?