good news, bad news
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verushka70The good news is, I passed the physical and was officially welcomed to the job. My start date is next Monday.
The bad news is, my checking account is overdrawn. :( Sigh.
And I have to buy new scrubs for my new job -- but I don't have any money to do that with! I'm hoping to sell some textbooks on Craigslist. Maybe I can scrape together the cash that way. And I'm supposed to get paid tomorrow for the last pay period at the old job. I just know that check will be tiny, though. That's the problem. In fact, depending how overdrawn I am (I haven't checked recently), the entire paycheck may be eaten by my overdraw and overdraw fees (and NSF fees). Sigh.
But once I start working the new job, in one 12 hour shift I will make more at the ER RN job than I made in two weeks at the camp job. Pathetic. So that will hopefully be the end of my $$ struggles for some time!
. . . and there was much rejoicing!
I am uncomfortable with the blood draw thing, though. I mean, I know they take your blood & urine to test for drug use. Okay, fine, whatever. But the nurse doing the whole thing told me that "this is all new since 9/11" -- that before 9/11, all they did was piss-test you.
I just don't like it. Yes, I know they are just looking for HIV & Hepatitis B and probably running other titers on all the things I should be immune to from required vaccinations (for nursing school). Yes, I'm sure they will throw my blood away when they are done with it. Yes, I have already donated my blood a number of times.
But it's the principle of the thing. And the fact that nothing they gave me said in writing what would actually be done with my blood, and nobody told me (although, admittedly, I was too intimidated to ask). When I donate blood, that's different: my blood winds up in a PERSON. Not in a lab somewhere (except for the small tubes they draw at first for HIV and other testing).
And anyway, it's just another example of how we're incrementally giving up freedoms to remain "safe" -- although how safe we are is questionable, given that a guy with drug-resistant TB was able to leave the US though he'd been told not to; was able to travel through Europe and the Mediterranean, and then re-enter the US through the Canadian border, even though he was flagged AND stopped and then later let go.
So it's like, we're incrementally giving up rights and freedoms... to be just as unsafe as we were before. Oh, yay! I feel so much better now!
The bad news is, my checking account is overdrawn. :( Sigh.
And I have to buy new scrubs for my new job -- but I don't have any money to do that with! I'm hoping to sell some textbooks on Craigslist. Maybe I can scrape together the cash that way. And I'm supposed to get paid tomorrow for the last pay period at the old job. I just know that check will be tiny, though. That's the problem. In fact, depending how overdrawn I am (I haven't checked recently), the entire paycheck may be eaten by my overdraw and overdraw fees (and NSF fees). Sigh.
But once I start working the new job, in one 12 hour shift I will make more at the ER RN job than I made in two weeks at the camp job. Pathetic. So that will hopefully be the end of my $$ struggles for some time!
. . . and there was much rejoicing!
I am uncomfortable with the blood draw thing, though. I mean, I know they take your blood & urine to test for drug use. Okay, fine, whatever. But the nurse doing the whole thing told me that "this is all new since 9/11" -- that before 9/11, all they did was piss-test you.
I just don't like it. Yes, I know they are just looking for HIV & Hepatitis B and probably running other titers on all the things I should be immune to from required vaccinations (for nursing school). Yes, I'm sure they will throw my blood away when they are done with it. Yes, I have already donated my blood a number of times.
But it's the principle of the thing. And the fact that nothing they gave me said in writing what would actually be done with my blood, and nobody told me (although, admittedly, I was too intimidated to ask). When I donate blood, that's different: my blood winds up in a PERSON. Not in a lab somewhere (except for the small tubes they draw at first for HIV and other testing).
And anyway, it's just another example of how we're incrementally giving up freedoms to remain "safe" -- although how safe we are is questionable, given that a guy with drug-resistant TB was able to leave the US though he'd been told not to; was able to travel through Europe and the Mediterranean, and then re-enter the US through the Canadian border, even though he was flagged AND stopped and then later let go.
So it's like, we're incrementally giving up rights and freedoms... to be just as unsafe as we were before. Oh, yay! I feel so much better now!
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Date: 2007-08-16 10:55 pm (UTC)ANYway. Do you need me to Paypal you some money? aukestrel (at) gmail.com. Also have you ever been overdrawn at your bank before? If not, if you explain it was a mistake and you are starting a NEW JOB YAYZ they might refund some of your fees.
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Date: 2007-08-17 04:29 pm (UTC)Yeah, the slow, quiet erosion of rights & freedoms should have the founding fathers rolling in their graves. Obviously, they weren't the most progressive of guys themselves--but if this had happened under their watch -- well, I guess that's the point: this wouldn't have happened under their watch. Sigh. V-chips, no probable cause for taps or search & seizure -- whups, sorry; there I go ranting again. I want to emigrate, I just don't know where to. I'd say Canada, but it seems like the US domestically abuses Canada like a bad husband -- and like a battered wife, she always takes him back. I guess we have NAFTA and globalization to thank for that. :(
btw... I haven't forgotten your offer to beta the Joe/Jerry HCL/FTWHTWD story. I have struggled with that story this summer! I kept wanting to wait to have it beta-ed until it was actually a first draft. But I've come to a dead end with it more than a couple times -- only to rescue it from that by a drastic revision. I'm wondering if maybe you ought to have a look at it BEFORE it gets to first draft stage. (I'm on version 15, if you can believe it . . . and haven't even come up with a suitable ending.) (I have neurotically saved all the previous versions, too...)
It went to some extremely dark places in the earlier versions. Then it went to some redemptive places in the middle versions -- but not worth the mean darkness I put Joe through. I mean, even I don't know what I was thinking. Plus it's exremely, very, mucho, tres promiscuous Joe -- but not in a happy way, more in an empty, gives-himself-to-anyone-who-wants-him-for-however-long-or-short-a-time way, using but letting himself be used too. If that makes any sense. That promiscuity has survived the many revisions because, well, I think it illustrates Joe's mindset prior to meeting Jerry -- as do the copious amounts of drugs & liquor I also have him doing, also in a pretty joyless, empty, addictive way.
So, to summarize, I'm wondering if maybe you ought to have a look at this Joe/Jerry HCL/FTWHTWD story now before I fuck it up further than I may have already. . . :\ I still intend for the days spent with Jerry to give Joe some kind of hope, perhaps plant the seeds for scheming to get Billy back. . . but I haven't written that yet. Anyways, let me know, at your leisure. Or, as Eddie Izzard says, your "lie-zure-ay" . . .
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Date: 2007-08-25 10:01 pm (UTC)Uh, sorry, PTSD for a minute.
Whatever, whenever, wherever - don't apologise, don't feel stressed, but I don't mind dark, I don't mind stalled, I don't mind wips. *g*
SOrry to drop off the face of the earth - I gave notice last week. Did you start your new job? Okay for $$? *g*
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Date: 2007-08-29 04:39 am (UTC)What do you mean, you gave notice? At your job? I hope it's to move to a better one! And that there's nothing too horrible going on... all too familiar with that myself. But then, if it hadn't gotten horrible with the psycho boss, and I hadn't gotten laid off by the bitch, I never would have gone back to school and gotten my R.N. and started a new career. (How very silver-lining/Pollyanna of me. So unlike my usual self... I'm just glad to be working again at a real job for the first time in 4 years, making basically the same money I was making when I lost my old job -- almost like I was never gone. Wish I could go back to my old job and throw it in my psycho-bitch ex-boss' face. Oh, that's much more like the usual, bitchy me. *g*)
Question (this is how bad it's gotten): I have extremely early versions (shorter, with promiscuous, embittered, abandoned Joe numbing himself with everything he possibly can in terms of substances and people), middle versions (similarly embittered, numbing and promiscuous, but longer and darker storywise with a crushing first encounter where he mistakes Jerry for Billy, and after realizing his mistake and getting close to Jerry turns into punish!me!Joe), and later versions -- still embittered, numbing himself, and promiscuous, but not seeking punishment; more open to what little (but down to earth and warm) Jerry has to offer. I'm up to version 16 at this point. I would say 13 was the last major revision from seriously dark to more, uh, uplifting. That's not really accurate, though; "less dark" is probably more accurate than "uplifting" *g* Versions 6-13 are getting progressively darker. I'm thinking maybe I should send you just the very early, maybe version 2, 3 or 4, before it became twisted (well, more twisted), and then the most recent (version 16) for comparison.
God, I don't know what is wrong with me, that I need all the hand-holdy stuff right now! I just don't want to get it wrong, y'know? I should've just written a PWP. *ponders* maybe I should do a few of those as just exercise, flex the muscles to pound the heavier stuff into shape later. *ponders more* But I have to be up in under 6 hours for work (eek, this 6:30am-7pm shift is pissing me off -- but in late Sep. I go on nights thank GAWD!), so the ponder is as far as it will get. *g*