pediatric nursing is KILLING me
Feb. 9th, 2007 02:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
verushka70Christ. As if it wasn't bad enough that I had an adorable 2 and 1/2 year old terminally ill kid as a patient a week and a half ago, which made me cry when I got home (to my mother, to my boyfriend, to my friends) -- yesterday I went to my student nurse rotation at a local grammar school and the nurse had called in sick! So I had to have my school nurse day rescheduled. Dammit! I just want this stuff to be OVER. I was having nightmares the first few weeks -- toddler serial killers (not killers of toddlers, but where the killer was a toddler!), pediatric hospitals crossed with concentration camps, saving a baby from a tornado by going through a "water lock" (like an air lock, but with water!) into an underground bomb shelter... This class has me shook up. And if I pass this, psychiatric nursing is next!
And on top of all of that, I just failed today's pediatrics exam. I got an 83% on the first exam (which would be a B in any other class, but in nursing, it's a C). On this morning's exam, I got a 71%. In any other class, 71% would be passing... but we must get 76%. I know, I know, higher standards for nurses, we don't want them killing the patients. And I'm not saying I want to be an "average nurse" -- of course not; I want to be a good nurse. But the questions are such trick questions on these exams! And there is so much they teach us in school that is USELESS out on the floor in the hospital. I'm not just talking out my ass -- I've had RNs that I've worked with in the hospitals TELL ME that once I get into the "real world," I'll find out all this school stuff means nothing and I'll never use it again!
So, of course, what have I done? I started my Joe Dick/Jerry Bines HCL/FTWHTWD xover story. It's set after Billy's left for LA, and Joe is hobo!Joe, unplugged!Joe, hitch-hiking!Joe mixed with on-the-road-bisexual-promiscuous!Joe... all to culminate in him meeting the spittin' image of Billy (Jerry) and doing things with Jerry he couldn't or wouldn't do with Billy or c/wouldn't let Billy do to him. In other words... it's porn.
Yay.
And on top of all of that, I just failed today's pediatrics exam. I got an 83% on the first exam (which would be a B in any other class, but in nursing, it's a C). On this morning's exam, I got a 71%. In any other class, 71% would be passing... but we must get 76%. I know, I know, higher standards for nurses, we don't want them killing the patients. And I'm not saying I want to be an "average nurse" -- of course not; I want to be a good nurse. But the questions are such trick questions on these exams! And there is so much they teach us in school that is USELESS out on the floor in the hospital. I'm not just talking out my ass -- I've had RNs that I've worked with in the hospitals TELL ME that once I get into the "real world," I'll find out all this school stuff means nothing and I'll never use it again!
So, of course, what have I done? I started my Joe Dick/Jerry Bines HCL/FTWHTWD xover story. It's set after Billy's left for LA, and Joe is hobo!Joe, unplugged!Joe, hitch-hiking!Joe mixed with on-the-road-bisexual-promiscuous!Joe... all to culminate in him meeting the spittin' image of Billy (Jerry) and doing things with Jerry he couldn't or wouldn't do with Billy or c/wouldn't let Billy do to him. In other words... it's porn.
Yay.
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Date: 2007-02-11 06:57 pm (UTC)