Ministry, Revolting Cocks.
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verushka70I don't think this Cymbalta is working anymore. Or else PMS is capable of trumping better living through chemistry. Or else my depression is just tougher than the drug.
I have tickets to see Ministry with Revolting Cocks and Pitbull Daycare tonight at HOB (Chicago). But I've got no one to go with. My oldest sister bailed on me even though she already said she would go (she's got a wedding to go to) and none of my other sisters or friends either (1) can go or (2) want to go. And the show is not sold out, so I doubt I can get my money back. I doubt Ticketbastard will let me sell the tickets back to them -- since I didn't buy them originally (my brother sold them to me; he preferred to see Nine Inch Nails and Bauhaus tonight). Sigh. If I can't sell them back, I'm out $100.
My mom's hair is starting to fall out. Her next chemo treatment is Monday. I hope this Reglan drug she's on will do the trick and prevent the nausea. The last chemo treatment, she was sick for days. We're supposed to go wig shopping some time this weekend, but with my other sister coming in from Wisconsin, I don't know how we'll fit it in before the next chemo treatment Monday.
If the Reglan doesn't work, I'm giving my mom some of my pot. I'm just gonna brew her tea with it. Fuck it. The oncology doc said he's got no objection to marijuana; said so in one of the family meeting appointments. Maybe a plant humans have been using for probably thousands of years will do what all the Rx drugs haven't, so far.
I think I got an A in my LPN class. When I totaled up all my test and nursing care plan scores, I got 92, and 92-100 is an A. But official grades won't be posted 'til... I think 8/1/06. So I won't know for certain for another month.
I applied for 9 jobs at three hospitals two weeks ago -- all patient care tech or patient companion jobs. (Despite having finished the LPN class, I can't be hired as "LPN license pending" until after 8/1, when the class and all clinicals are officially over. Yeah, 3 weeks 'til I start the 2nd year of nursing school. Kinda pointless to get hired then, but...)
No one has contacted me about my applications for any of the jobs. I really, really, really don't want to work in a nursing home... especially one of those horrible chain companies that hires LPNs to do RN work and pay them only LPN wages. But that may be my only option.
I have an exam Wednesday 7/5 for this online Med/Surg IV class I'm taking. I really don't feel prepared but I've never taken an online class before. And I don't think I will again. I prefer having to show up to class and have a teacher lecture & explain. (God, I sure never thought I'd say that.)
I suppose I should go back to more reading on central venous catheters, hemodynamic monitoring, community-based nursing, TB, and communicable disease, now.
Riiiiight.... I managed to spend a day and a half reading The Nanny Diaries by Emma McLaughlin and Nicola Kraus. What a sad, sad book. I mean, scathing, too -- and at times, laugh-out-loud viciously funny. But ultimately sad. After I finished the book, what I felt was sad for the little boy and the nanny. The nanny is an adult; she'll get over being badly treated. The little boy probably won't. God, how cruel and narcissistically abusive people like Mrs. X and her husband are -- not only to their help, the only sane people, but to their own kids. And that's the moneyed class our dear president is from (the Bushes were originally east coast wealth, not down-home Texans). That explains so much.
Well, as one of my only beloved (and not weird -- and long dead) Indiana cousins used to say, "Aren't I a joypot."
I have tickets to see Ministry with Revolting Cocks and Pitbull Daycare tonight at HOB (Chicago). But I've got no one to go with. My oldest sister bailed on me even though she already said she would go (she's got a wedding to go to) and none of my other sisters or friends either (1) can go or (2) want to go. And the show is not sold out, so I doubt I can get my money back. I doubt Ticketbastard will let me sell the tickets back to them -- since I didn't buy them originally (my brother sold them to me; he preferred to see Nine Inch Nails and Bauhaus tonight). Sigh. If I can't sell them back, I'm out $100.
My mom's hair is starting to fall out. Her next chemo treatment is Monday. I hope this Reglan drug she's on will do the trick and prevent the nausea. The last chemo treatment, she was sick for days. We're supposed to go wig shopping some time this weekend, but with my other sister coming in from Wisconsin, I don't know how we'll fit it in before the next chemo treatment Monday.
If the Reglan doesn't work, I'm giving my mom some of my pot. I'm just gonna brew her tea with it. Fuck it. The oncology doc said he's got no objection to marijuana; said so in one of the family meeting appointments. Maybe a plant humans have been using for probably thousands of years will do what all the Rx drugs haven't, so far.
I think I got an A in my LPN class. When I totaled up all my test and nursing care plan scores, I got 92, and 92-100 is an A. But official grades won't be posted 'til... I think 8/1/06. So I won't know for certain for another month.
I applied for 9 jobs at three hospitals two weeks ago -- all patient care tech or patient companion jobs. (Despite having finished the LPN class, I can't be hired as "LPN license pending" until after 8/1, when the class and all clinicals are officially over. Yeah, 3 weeks 'til I start the 2nd year of nursing school. Kinda pointless to get hired then, but...)
No one has contacted me about my applications for any of the jobs. I really, really, really don't want to work in a nursing home... especially one of those horrible chain companies that hires LPNs to do RN work and pay them only LPN wages. But that may be my only option.
I have an exam Wednesday 7/5 for this online Med/Surg IV class I'm taking. I really don't feel prepared but I've never taken an online class before. And I don't think I will again. I prefer having to show up to class and have a teacher lecture & explain. (God, I sure never thought I'd say that.)
I suppose I should go back to more reading on central venous catheters, hemodynamic monitoring, community-based nursing, TB, and communicable disease, now.
Riiiiight.... I managed to spend a day and a half reading The Nanny Diaries by Emma McLaughlin and Nicola Kraus. What a sad, sad book. I mean, scathing, too -- and at times, laugh-out-loud viciously funny. But ultimately sad. After I finished the book, what I felt was sad for the little boy and the nanny. The nanny is an adult; she'll get over being badly treated. The little boy probably won't. God, how cruel and narcissistically abusive people like Mrs. X and her husband are -- not only to their help, the only sane people, but to their own kids. And that's the moneyed class our dear president is from (the Bushes were originally east coast wealth, not down-home Texans). That explains so much.
Well, as one of my only beloved (and not weird -- and long dead) Indiana cousins used to say, "Aren't I a joypot."
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Date: 2006-07-01 08:41 pm (UTC)Zofran (Ondansetron) (http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/druginfo/uspdi/202424.html) works much better for cancer patients than Reglan (metoclopramide) (http://www.nlm.nih.gov/medlineplus/druginfo/uspdi/202364.html) in my experience. But alternating the 2 is somewhat successful since they work in different ways.
From the article found here. (http://www.nida.nih.gov/Infofacts/marijuana.html)
Research clearly demonstrates that marijuana has the potential to cause problems in daily life or make a person's existing problems worse.Depression, anxiety, and personality disturbanceshave been associated with chronic marijuana use. Because marijuana compromises the ability to learn and remember information, the more a person uses marijuana the more he or she is likely to fall behind in accumulating intellectual, job, or social skills. Moreover, research has shown that marijuana’s adverse impact on memory and learning can last for days or weeks after the acute effects of the drug wear off.
If you use, then couldn't this have an affect on your cymbalta not working? Also please be careful with pre-employment drug screening. If found in your system it will be reported to the nursing governing board and could hurt you when applying for your license. I've watched many a nurse lose their license or be put on probation related to drug use. I have a co-worker right now that is on 2 year probation and mandatory AA classes and drug screens because of marijuana.
I agree that the marijuana brewed in a tea may help your mother's nausea as much as the prescribed drugs. But if she is having depresson issues (as most cancer fighters do) please be aware it may increase her depression as well.
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Date: 2006-07-06 01:39 am (UTC)Does having one bottle of chardonnay in your fridge with only one glass poured in the last four months make you an alcoholic?
Simply having pot in my apartment does not make me a chronic user.
If I was using it while on Cymbalta. I haven't smoked it since spring mid-terms. Before that, I smoked at Christmas. I think I smoked pot five times in 2005. You could piss-test me now, and I'd be clean. Hardly a chronic "user."
I know. See above.
My mother is currently on Lexapro for her depression.
I've always been scrupulously honest with my doctors and have informed all of them of my marijuana usage and how (in)frequent it is. The honest truth, on a stack of bibles (or insert your religious text of choice), is:
In the past 17 years, I have had one allergist, three psychiatrists, and one LCSW tell me that occasional smoking of marijuana would not impact or worsen my allergies, asthma, or depression. Habitual and/or frequent pot-smoking would, of course -- and they all told me that, naturally! But I'm guessing three psychiatrists, one allergist, and one LCSW did not all lie to me about occasional use not being harmful.
Not one healthcare professional with whom I was honest about my infrequent use of marijuana ever said I was harming myself, or that I should stop my infrequent use.
As for the NIDA quote (from http://www.nida.nih.gov/Infofacts/marijuana.html) you sent me, consider this:
"...NIDA's role seems to have become one of service to the War on Drugs. Dozens of claims of toxicity appear in its documents, despite the existence of scores of scientific studies refuting their validity. At the same time, studies that fail to find serious toxicity are ignored."
http://www.ukcia.org/research/zimmer.htm (http://www.ukcia.org/research/zimmer.htm)
Also, in 1998 The Lancet, Great Britain's oldest and most respected medical journal, published the results of (yet another) study showing that casual use of marijuana was not harmful. In an editorial in that issue, they also said:
"The smoking of cannabis, even long term, is not harmful to health....Sooner or later politicians will have to stop running scared and address the evidence: cannabis per se is not a hazard to society but driving it further underground may well be."
http://www.cfdp.ca/lancet.htm (http://www.cfdp.ca/lancet.htm)
(I don't have a link to the online Lancet article; that's "premium" content.)
Are there people with marijuana habits, addictions, and problems? Of course there are. Just like there are people with shopping, gambling, alcohol, Internet, and cigarette addictions and problems.
But our government hasn't made those activities illegal. Our government sees fit to let adults make up their own minds whether they want to shop, gamble, drink, surf the 'net, or smoke cigarettes.
IMHO, marijuana should be treated the same way. I believe that most people can responsibly use it.
Pot is not like crack. You can keep it in your freezer for months, like gourmet coffee, and only have some occasionally. I've had it in my fridge for months, and don't feel compelled to use it. (The same can not be said for potato chips, cookie dough, or chocolate, sadly...)
Also... in case you hadn't noticed before, I sometimes use an icon of a hookah. I am 100% pro decriminalization and, preferably, legalization of marijuana. IMO, marijuana hasn't damaged people I love anywhere near as much as alcohol, cigarettes, and cocaine.
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Date: 2006-07-06 05:22 am (UTC)It just came across to me that the things you were talking about were counter productive. If you had been discussing drinking alcohol my reaction would have been the same, why take meds for depression then take a substance that exacerbates depression?
I wasn't lecturing. Just offering info so you could see where my thinking was coming from.
It was meant only to be helpful.
I could care less whether it's decriminalized or not. It's like everything else, legal or not if someone wants it they will get it and use it. Making something illegal doesn't stop someone from getting it.
and I totally agree that of all the substances out there it's the least of the issues.
I'm sorry to have offended you as that was not anywhere near my intent. Nor was you thinking I was passing judgement, because that is something I would never ever do.
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Date: 2006-07-06 04:57 pm (UTC)So, no harm, no foul. On to more slash!
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Date: 2006-07-01 09:06 pm (UTC)I wish to hell the government would do the right thing and okay the use of MJ for medical reasons. It's ridiculous to make people suffer when they know that it can help the symptoms of the majority of people who use it for nausea or glaucoma.
Good luck with whatever course you take.
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Date: 2006-07-06 01:41 am (UTC)So kind of you to send good thoughts. Thank you again.
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Date: 2006-07-03 09:39 pm (UTC)I've been reading your "another life" series and it was hot and deep and I want to hug Fraser a lot. I think you got Fraser's mindset dead on, and oh yes, it was very very deeply hot.
*gets cheeky*Is there any more that isn't on Squidge? I think you have created a monster ;-)
Also, best wishes to your mum and congrats on the exams.
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Date: 2006-07-06 01:46 am (UTC)Woo. (blushing happily) Thank you for the compliments.
Sadly, no, although there are some Squidge stories I wrote under the pseud Surfgirl that I'm told are hot. They're all rated NC-17 or Adult. And all are, with rare exceptions, Fraser/RayK.
Thank you so much. And thanks for the fb.
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Date: 2006-07-06 06:38 pm (UTC)Oh, greatness, I'll go looking for those soon.
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Date: 2006-07-06 02:23 am (UTC)I haven't got any more RayK/Fraser BDSM stories. But there are some RayK/Fraser threesome, j/o, and voyeuristic stories I wrote as Surfgirl on Squidge. Just do a search by author=Surfgirl and rating NC-17. I think somewhere offline I have a Fraser/RayK/sex toy story I never finished.
But if you've already read all those, unfortunately, I havent got anything newer and kinky, except what's already been posted on my LJ.
Hope that helps!
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Date: 2006-07-06 06:39 pm (UTC)I think somewhere offline I have a Fraser/RayK/sex toy story I never finished.
Excuse me, I think my brain is going to stop working for a while.
I thank -- or blame -- you
Date: 2006-07-24 04:34 pm (UTC)So... I have begun a sequel / ending to the last of the Another Life RayK/Fraser BDSM series.
It will be a while, though, before it's in any shape to show anyone. I'm in the middle of this Med/Surg IV class in nursing school, my mom's halfway through chemo, and my step-dad's probably got cancer (not yet confirmed) of either the prostate or the colon (or both). So my RL is rather demanding at the moment, and projected to remain so for an unknown while.
And I want the ending of this series to be top quality, so I'll be extra picky. And I do tend to write looooong stories (because what's the point if you can't lay a lot of angsty groundwork? she asked rhetorically). So, no promises on dates or deadlines or anything. It could be a while...
But it's all your fault, yay! No -- just kidding! Truly, I felt bad leaving Fraser and Ray all hurt and angry with each other in the last story in the series. And I've known I needed to finish that off. But I got stuck/blocked. I started the last story/resolution a few times, but it never went right. For whatever reason, just couldn't get past the "stuck-ness" -- 'til now.
Re: I thank -- or blame -- you
Date: 2006-07-24 07:24 pm (UTC)Long stories get my eternal admiration, because I am trying to write my first right now, and it is bloody hard work.
I'm glad it's my fault. :-)
I know that stuck/blocked feeling, there are a couple of stories in my old fandom that desperately need endings.
duh...
Date: 2006-07-24 04:35 pm (UTC)