so sorry to hear about your mom :( at least shes moving forward and things are happening... and thank goodness for insurance!
also sorry to hear about the crap at your work... its not right that your coworkers alienate you and make you feel so alone and depressed. thats just bullshit. in my experience, i would MUCH rather work with men than women. it may be a generalization, but guys tend to air things out and talk straight, whereas a lot of women scheme and play mind games and find acceptance in little nasty gossip circles. it makes no sense. guys compete with one another, but women do it in a much more degrading, psychological-torture type of way. it is a very unhealthy atmosphere, one that has put me in hospital from stress before [stress manifests in my belly, and ive had more than one surgery because of it]. i wont let it happen again. my life is too short and too precious to me to let me get run down by people who dont matter in the long run. i was suidical and very depressed, and afterwards i realized how much the situation was killing me, how much it ran me down and drained me and made me feel helpless and useless. and im NOT. im a strong, bright, helpful, kind person! and so are you!
its easy for me to say, because you have to do the work and not me, but if i were you i would find a way out of there. its affecting you in many ways, some of which you may find out too late. and with the added stress of your moms illness, something is going to snap, your body or your mind. your coworkers have no right to make you feel like that. if you dont look out for yourself, your health, your mental health, your balance, no one else will. *hugs*
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also sorry to hear about the crap at your work... its not right that your coworkers alienate you and make you feel so alone and depressed. thats just bullshit. in my experience, i would MUCH rather work with men than women. it may be a generalization, but guys tend to air things out and talk straight, whereas a lot of women scheme and play mind games and find acceptance in little nasty gossip circles. it makes no sense. guys compete with one another, but women do it in a much more degrading, psychological-torture type of way. it is a very unhealthy atmosphere, one that has put me in hospital from stress before [stress manifests in my belly, and ive had more than one surgery because of it]. i wont let it happen again. my life is too short and too precious to me to let me get run down by people who dont matter in the long run. i was suidical and very depressed, and afterwards i realized how much the situation was killing me, how much it ran me down and drained me and made me feel helpless and useless. and im NOT. im a strong, bright, helpful, kind person! and so are you!
its easy for me to say, because you have to do the work and not me, but if i were you i would find a way out of there. its affecting you in many ways, some of which you may find out too late. and with the added stress of your moms illness, something is going to snap, your body or your mind. your coworkers have no right to make you feel like that. if you dont look out for yourself, your health, your mental health, your balance, no one else will. *hugs*