verushka70: Marty shoves Rust up against the locker in True Detective S01E02 (True Detective S1)
Well, I've read all the Longmire Walt/Henry slash on AO3. There is a shocking lack thereof, which I feel I must rectify by writing some. I'm really surprised how little there is, though there is tons of Walt/Vic -- which, while I can certainly see the chemistry (but then who wouldn't have chemistry with Katee Sackhoff, really? lol), is a whole bag of tricks I'm not into as much, mainly because canonically she's kind of a trainwreck in terms of relationships, and Walt is so not... so I see that as being a volcano that would destroy everything in its path (including both of them)...

...and also because, damn, I just find the Walt/Henry chemistry to be the constant glowing embers of a fire that burns hot and then maybe simmers down for a while and then flares up again in a kind of "we don't talk about it BUT IT'S THERE" kind of way.

So if anyone knows of any Walt/Henry Longmire slash that isn't on AO3 and which I should read, by all means -- please let me know.

Also: recently saw a Spanish language film called "La isla minima" (aka Marshlands), a disappearance/mystery set in the Andalusian marshlands in 1980*.

Interestingly it pinged me like S1 of True Detective, with the same kind of desolate, isolated rural swampland horrors-beneath-the-surface vibe, but without the supernatural or philosophical stuff (and only slight slashy twinges). Apparently I'm not the only person to have felt the True Detective S1 vibe from it, though apparently it was in production before TD S1 was.

It is really good. I recommend it, if you don't mind subtitles. It is suspenseful and thought provoking.

*with all the textual and subtextual post-Franco dread that implies
verushka70: Marty shoves Rust up against the locker in True Detective S01E02 (True Detective S1)
Having seen Paul Thomas Anderson's film Inherent Vice over the weekend (I missed it in theaters), I'm now tempted to tackle the source, Thomas Pynchon's novel. Joaquin Phoenix's performance reminded me somewhat of his similarly hapless role in Clay Pigeons (with Janeane Garofalo, back in the 90s), but of course here he's a stoner PI rather than the main suspect.

I really loved all the period details. I'm old enough that I remember some of the early part of my childhood, when hippies really *were* perceived as dirty, filthy degenerates and a threat equated with the Manson family, Viet Nam was a nightly horror on the news, and Nixon's paranoia colored the straight world's perception of everything (not to mention the casual police brutality of the times, which seems to have morphed over the decades from a policy of blanket brutality to superficial civil rights punctuated by frequent outbursts of "justified" lethal force... progress, not so much). So maybe I'll give it a shot, though I find Pynchon's stuff intimidating in general, probably because my ADD makes it hard enough to finish books... I do better with nonfiction these days, and I'm embarrassed to admit I got a gift of Pynchon's The Crying Of Lot 49 years ago, and just couldn't get into it.

But imo, there's a definite culture clashy slashy vibe between Doc the dirty hippie and Bigfoot the brutal LAPD cop--not helped by Bigfoot frequently sucking on chocolate covered frozen bananas around Doc often throughout the film. And their weird working relationship seems preslash, to me. I'm disappointed to find no Inherent Vice fanfic at all on AO3, much less slash. Of course now a plot bunny for them is rolling around my head... just what I need.

In other news, yesterday and last night I had a migraine so bad, I threw up a few times. And now I have these tiny petechiae (dots of burst blood vessels) all around both eyes from the force of the vomiting, like blood red freckles. If I were dressing up as a zombie, this would really work for that look. Instead, I'm maxed on concealer. At least my coworkers are all healthcare professionals. Though who knows what the patients work think if they saw them. And, realistically, my coworkers could also easily assume that the vomiting associated with the petechiae was from drinking to excess. Sigh...
verushka70: Veronica gives the finger to an asshole (lipstick flip-off)
This did not happen today.

(doorbell rings) (I answer door)

Me: Can I help you?

Her: Oh, we were just spreading the word--

Me (firmly): No, thank you.

Her: Well, we're going door to door to invite people to our church--

Me (even more firmly): I said, NO, thank you.

Her: Well--

Me: How would you like it if I went door to door, spreading the word of atheism? And I rang your doorbell and said, "Hello, here's a newspaper about how God doesn't exist, and you're all alone in the Universe, and everything you've ever been told about a kind and forgiving deity is brainwashing bullshit designed to separate you from your money, so that organized religions that protect and provide sanctuary to pedophiles and rapists can fill their coffers?"

Her: (speechless)I continue to go off )
verushka70: Dylan O'Brien's hands and forearms (suit-hands)
Since my tendonitis/epicondylitis got a bit better, I tried to light a fire under my own ass to finish two long WIPs.

I posted on AO3 excerpts of two longer fics -- one a dS WIP(RayK/Stella, RayK/Sam Franklin, eventual Fraser/Kowalski), and one a TW WIP (Derek/Stiles).

Then I wrote a Teen Wolf/True Detective Derek Hale/Rust Cohle crossover... uh, whoops? But I feel they would understand each other, these two. They have both lost so much, had so much grief.

All are technically unbeta-ed, though the dS WIP has been beta-ed somewhat (thanks Ride_Forever!).

Just Act Normal
Fandoms: due South
Words: 11,588
M/M, F/M
Tags: Sam Franklin/Ray Kowalski, Ray Kowalski/Stella Kowalski,
Rimming, Anal Fingering, Anal Sex, First Time Blow Jobs, Sexual
Confusion, Bisexuality, Infidelity, First Gay Sex, Angst

Summary: Stella was gone. Sam was around. A lot. Ray realized pretty soon that he had a crush on Sam. A terrible, hopeful crush.

This Is What You Do (To Me)
Fandoms: Teen Wolf (TV)
Words: 2,163
Tags: Underage,
Derek Hale/Stiles Stilinski
Masturbation, Voyeurism, Self-Denial, Come play

Summary: Derek's surprise visits usually involve shaking Stiles down for research. Anything else is an afterthought (chain-yanking). Stiles is fed up with it. So when he finds Derek in his room again, he shows him the door. Or, rather, window. At least, that was the plan.

Beautiful (Beast)
Fandoms: Teen Wolf (TV), True Detective
Words: 4,465
Tags: Rustin "Rust" Cohle/Derek Hale, Derek Hale, Laura Hale, Rustin
"Rust" Cohle, Blow Jobs, Anal Fingering, Anonymous Sex

Summary: "Show me," Rust murmurs. Derek lets his wolf out a little, just the eyes, the heavy brow, the fangs and sideburns. "Beautiful beast," Rust whispers. He slides down the back of the bathroom door to his knees. When he looks up with glassy eyes, Derek realizes it isn't just Rust kneeling at his feet. It's Rust and someone else. Rust has shifted, in his own way.
verushka70: Veronica gives the finger to an asshole (lipstick flip-off)
I'd hate to jinx myself but... after a month and a half of seeing a naprapath and following her exercise and nutrition regimen (mostly), I am starting to see some results. (The chiropractor has helped, too, as the shooting pain alternating with numbness/tingling that goes down my R forearm is probably, as he suggested, at least neck-vertebrae-nerve related (if not wholly to blame, which is his hypothesis, but I'm going to go with "major contributory factor").

I kind of thought the naprapath was, well, overselling the fruit-veg smoothie thing. Not that I thought she was lying, I just thought "It can't be THAT much of a difference, and I already eat those foods, anyway!") What can I say, I'm a skeptic at heart.

The idea that I'd have a spare $400 laying around to buy a Vitamix just for fruit/veg smoothies (when I'm still paying off radiology, doctor visits, and PT from December when I had shitty market place insurance with a $5000 deductible) was a no-go.

But I lucked into a "personal drink mixer" for $14.99 on sale while it was a temporary offering at my local Aldi's, put in my path by the universe/God/whatever about 1.5 weeks after she said I ought to start doing this and I investigated the cost of Vitamix, Ninja and the other one, and was like, "There's no way, not with the bills from December and the new bills from January/February."
Read more... )

But after 2 weeks of daily organic kale/mango or kale/mixed cherries, I felt so. much. BETTER. it was actually shocking how much better I felt. My mood improved a lot, which surprised the hell out of me. I was just hoping for a decrease in pain/inflammation. And I really didn't understand why the organic kale/spinach and avocados weren't doing the trick when I was eating them almost daily in salads. Apparently, blending the hell out of them into a smoothie and then drinking them helps you get more out of them! Who knew? Not me... not until recently.

I still haven't added the protein powder, but just the fruit/veg (and turmeric and Emergen-C) smoothies daily, combined with naprapathic manipulation every 2 weeks and weekly (or every 2 week) chiropractor visits has reduced the shooting pain &/or tingling/numbness from 15-20 x day to 2-5 x a day.

So excited! I actually have the energy to take the dog on long walks after I get home from work now, instead of just a 5 minute walk and then collapse on the couch after we get back (followed by letting him out on a 20' lead from my front porch).
Read more... )
It does not escape me that I, a Registered Nurse and representative of modern western conventional medicine, have been helped far more by "alternative medicine" than by conventional medicine.

OTOH, my new insurance through work with the lower deductible ($1,400 rather than $5,000 -- or the $6,000 my shitty marketplace plan was moving to) does not pay for "alternative medicine," so it's taking kind of a large chunk of money out of my life. But I don't go out much, and when I do, it's usually over to someone else's house or having them over to mine (less often), so it's not like I can't swing it, for the most part.

So this is what I make in the morning, EVERY morning:

fill personal drink cup with 1/2 organic baby kale OR organic baby spinach
fill with 1/2 organic defrosted frozen mango/mixed organic cherries
dump in 1 envelope of orange or berry flavored Emergen-C
add 1 teaspoon organic turmeric
fill 2/3 to 3/4 with unsweetened almond milk

I add no sweetener (the Emergen-C is sweetened -- it *says* with "fructose" but I'm not sure if that's really fructorse or HFCS (since food makers are now allowed to call HFCS "fructose")).

Sometimes I'll mix the mangoes and cherries together. Sometimes I'll use a banana or apple instead. Occasionally I've used celery instead of kale or spinach, just for variety and celery is supposed to be anti-inflammatory, too.

Every day, day by day, it's been helping.

Even if I'm only at 55-65% of my functioning -- hey, I was only at about 25-35% function two months ago, constantly in pain, and with no energy, barely able to drag myself to work and drag myself home. I had practically stopped socializing (except for phone convos, texting, and email).

This is so much better.

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If being sick with upper respiratory infection for weeks hasn't been enough, the tendonitis which seemed to be getting better has now morphed into numbness and tingling that shoots down my right arm to thumb and index finger.

I keep thinking of the things I'll never do because of it and because it keeps coming back.

I will never write seriously. I probably never would have, given that fanfic dominated my creative output. But the possibility was at least out there ...before tendonitis.

I can never go back to playing music. I miss it so much sometimes (I didn't love playing violin, but I loved playing the piano) and violin skills translate to guitar, which I taught myself a little of... before tendonitis.

I can never go back to electronic art or even modern video editing (my first bachelors was a BFA in film/video and electronic media). I simply can't do all the mousing and keyboard work and knob twiddling necessary.

I will never be free of this weakness, this vulnerability that hampers all my creative outlets, the ones I love most. I feel I'm crippled for life. Every time I over do it, I am crippled by pain and dysfunction for weeks or months.

Professionally, I can never move up into management. I probably wouldn't have anyway (doesn't fit my personality) but the computer work (QA, data analysis, email) is impossible for me now.

They just offered me my boss' position (she's stepping down) and I will clearly have to decline. I probably would have anyway, but I would have liked to decline because I wanted to decline -- not because I physically can't do the work required.

I suppose I should thank my lucky stars that I can still start IVs on patients, as that is not a pain free activity for me, but it at least doesn't leave my arm aching the way the necessary computer charting does.

Speech to text helps a bit but is still so imperfect it requires a lot of correction which just strains my arm more. I can't imagine writing an entire novel-length work with speech to text. It would be as much work correcting the speech written text as it would typing the entire thing out.

If I owe you replies or messages, this is why. I'm only posting this because I'm already in so much pain it won't make much difference and I'm enraged and depressed at my fate.

Goddamnit. I hate this.
verushka70: I took this photo of a waterfall at dusk in Olympic National Park in 2009. (waterfall)
I'm going to gush now, so please forgive me. ( let me apologize now for the lack of cut text here. it's really difficult to do with speech to text, which I'm using because of my ongoing horrible flare up of tendonitis.)

I never used to watch telenovelas even though I was with a Mexican American man for 10 years, mostly because he hated telenovelas and I never was much into primetime soap operas, so I never watched them on my own.

That's why I was utterly unaware of the scruffy beauty of Demian Bichir until I started watching The Bridge from FX. (which I used to illegally download.) (I also didn't know that he was in Weeds, because I didn't have Showtime and I haven't had cable for years except for HBO which I've only had for the last two years as part of my internet service provider's high speed internet -- but only the HBO channels, nothing else). Now that Weeds is available streaming, I'm catching up.

(The Bridge is a gritty, cynical consistently very watchable cop show based on a Swedish original series, set on the border of Texas and Mexico, with Diane Kruger and Demian Bichir, and exploring all the corruption and interdependence that you would expect by the border. Sadly, it was cancelled after 2 seasons. I still highly recommend it.)

I still haven't seen most of the stuff that Demian Bichir has been in because most of it is telenovelas and most of it seems to be unavailable via Netflix or Amazon Prime.

But last night I had the chance to watch a movie called Death In Buenos Aires through HBO On Demand, in which Demian Bichir stars with a beautiful new young man, Chino Darin.

OMG, so slow build, slow burn slashy. And intentionally slashy -- it's part of the A plot because the murder they're trying to solve is of a known gay man.

NEVER thought that I would see Demian Bichir in something *intentionally* slashy, but I'm so glad! it's like a Demian Bichir dream come true.

Also, the director (Natalia Meta), and both producers are all women. So they're slashficcers, like us!

If you have the chance to see this movie, you really really should. yes, it has subtitles, and yes, it is in Spanish. but it is so worth it.

It's set in Argentina in the 1980s, when it was really corrupt (not really sure that's changed, but it was definitely really really corrupt then).

It's really suspenseful at building the slash, it's really suspenseful in solving the murder mystery, and it's really well done. It is by no means earth-shattering in terms of its philosophical import, but it consistently holds your attention.

And while elements of it are utterly cynical, there is a lyrical beauty to it and almost a surrealism of symbolism that makes it dreamy and beautiful in multiple parts. Where you know your instincts are telling you something important for your self preservation but you don't know exactly what, and you're torn between giving in to your paranoia and cynicism, and not only not wanting to believe in your worst fears, but also wanting to believe in the possibility of hidden dreams you've barely allowed yourself to sense.

WARNING: It does not have a happy ending -- in terms of fanfiction warnings, it would be a canonical character death, but that's the canon. Which just begs for fix it fic. Just sayin.

Oh my god, I want slash fic for Death in Buenos Aires so badly and there isn't any that I have found anywhere! not a single creative Google search has turned up any.

I think I'm just going to have to write it... after I get over this miserable bout of tendinitis. and of course after I finish my due south Secret Santa, and finish the other teen wolf story that I'm currently working on, and finish the unfinished work in progress for due south that I've had going for like over a year...

By the way, this is being posted courtesy of email posting and speech to text. So any errors are unintentional but I do not have the hand, wrist, and forearm strength or endurance to go back and fix them at this time.

I have an appointment Monday with our hand surgeon / hand specialist, so we'll see what he says. I'm lucky that I work with doctors and surgeons, because I explain my problem today, he examined my arms, and he wrote me a prescription for Celebrex to tide me over until my appointment.

with my insurance, which costs me $217 and change per month out of my own pocket (because I don't get coverage at my job because I'm a registry (float) RN who gets paid a higher wage with no benefits, no pension, no 401k), 15 pills of celebrex were $28. So, basically, nearly $2 a pill or $2/day (1 pill/day).

but I've been taking ibuprofen, 800 milligrams 3 times a day, and then I switch to naproxen, and they are barely making a dent, and the pain always comes back before I can take more pain medicine. Plus god only knows what both of those are doing to the lining of my stomach.

I can only imagine how much the Celebrex would have cost without insurance. and that was the generic price!

if I were keyboarding, I'd be key mashing about that.

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verushka70: S4E1 Walt alone silhouette wearing hat and holding shotgun (Default)
My tendinitis continues. It's been -- I've lost track -- 5 weeks I think. things that bring only symptomatic relief )

Got a massage & acupuncture yesterday after work. It gave me the first 100% relief I've had in over a month. It's back today but not as bad. Most of this has been copied and pasted from speech to text on my phone using my left hand only. It's not perfect but it helps.

I honestly can't wait for freezing weather to come. The older I get, the happier I am when it's cold. why - and it's not just perimenopause )

Now that the clocks have changed, SAD is hitting me big time. On the plus side, last year Costco had SAD lamps on sale; I got one. symptoms )

I'm watching S3 of Hemlock Grove and... can't get into it. What happened? not sure anything would help )

iZombie S2, however, I am loving. I caught up with S1 on Netflix. I get some of the same feels from iZombie I used to get from Veronica Mars (the series). I love the score/whoever scores it; I think it's the same person... at least, it is a similar sound -- the scoring/soundtrack for VM was atmospheric and spot-on. Plus I just love the characters. I never really thought I'd dig a zombie show but here's why I do )

The premiere of S4 of Elementary was... well, it wasn't terrible. on the fence of meh+minor spoiler but I think it was previewed in trailers for S4 )

Bojack Horseman is a *weird* show, but pretty damn funny. It's animated, sort of like Bob's Burgers crossed with Dirt (the only show I ever truly loved Courtney Cox on). gonna keep watching )
verushka70: Veronica gives the finger to an asshole (lipstick flip-off)
K, so last weekend while running an inexplicable fever (sinus/cold related, apparently) I completed bingewatching iZombie now that S1 is on Netflix.

I love it! It has the smarts, running musings and sassy chick of Veronica Mars, plus zombies. (Not my favorite horror trope -- I've yet to watch an episode of The Walking Dead.) There's also David Anders (whose ambiguous sexual presence has always made him kind of sexy, if creepy, in his villainous roles). And a sexy east Indian newcomer, Rahul Kohli, whose facial hair makes me wonder what he can do with it and just where it should be applied, lol.

Since it is filmed in BC, it had several old dS/C6D alum (from BSG and DVI) pop up in S1, yay. Most recently, however, in tonight's ep (S2E03), I could have sworn I saw Anne Marie Deluise nee Loder! Yes, the former Stella Kowalski on dS!

I have yet to confirm this (details of S2E03 aren't yet available on or Wikipedia), but I'm not done watching yet (and I hate rewinding on Hulu because then I get the commercials again, and I'm too cheap to pay the extra $$ for commercial free).

Will double check and update this post if/when it's confirmed.

But I really like iZombi. They even threw in a reference to one of producer/co-creator Rob Thomas's YA books (the astronaut from RATS Saw GOD). So I'm really enjoying iZombie and all of that sassy girl snark and snappy dialogue that made Veronica Mars crackle. So much that I would've watched it tonight when broadcast, if it hadn't been preempted on the local WGN/CW station by a Bulls game. A Bulls exhibition game.

What was the point of that?? The entire city (except for me) was watching the Cubs game. (If I'm a fan of baseball at all, it's of a. the form-fitting uniforms and the baseball athlete body, and b. the Chicago White Sox.) Whatevs (she said, rambling.) It's on Hulu now so I'm watching it. They low-censused me for work tomorrow so I can stay up late and drink beer on the couch with my dog and cats and this has been posted via email using Speech To Text on my phone, courtesy of an ongoing tendinitis flare-up.

And btw, fuck you, tendinitis, you suck pigsty hog balls.
verushka70: I took this photo of a waterfall at dusk in Olympic National Park in 2009. (waterfall)
I'm subscribed to Electronic Freedom Foundation. Tonight EFF sent me this notice via email.

In "the dancing baby case" (where Universal Music Group forced YouTube to take down a video a mom made of her dancing toddler while Prince's song "Let's Go Crazy" played in the background), it seems the 9th Circuit Court has found (in part) (and if I understand correctly) that...

...fair use is a right. Further, that it's part of the right to free speech!

Does this have implications for fandom...? I'm no legal expert but I would think so (?). Seems like good news, at any rate. Take that, Universal Music Group! Bwahahahaaaa!

Read about it here:
verushka70: Veronica smiles smugly before giving the finger (smug smile)
Prefacing this with: yes, I do live under a rock wrt the Internet. tendinitis and work restrictions curtail my online activities 10+ yrs now )This is not necessarily a bad thing. It just is what it is.

I've noticed this gay-looking visual trend among mainstream male stars in TV/movies growing over the years & wondered where it came from & how conscious it is (ie, w/actors' knowledge/permission?). Turns out, totally conscious/intentional these days. But I didn't see this THR article (or the ONTD that linked it) until today.

Feeling fairly smug about noticing this stuff in near total hype-isolation -- being validated by mainstream entertainment press.

Introducing the Stromo! Why Straight Male Stars are Going Gay(ish)
Channing Tatum, Nick Jonas, Chris Hemsworth and others have moved beyond metrosexual. Think of these stars as "straight" plus "homo" — modern, lady-loving male actors who amp up their appeal to gay audiences for pride and profit.

As a long time consumer of straight and gay porn, I wonder if "stromo" actors realize the visual aesthetics they're pursuing began in gay porn a long time ago -- and if that would change their minds. Probably not. All money, even gay money, is green. Progress... right?\o?

why 'stromo' doesn't seem like the right word )

In other news -- I'm almost all caught up with TW. Haven't seen the last 2 eps (including mid-season finale of S5) yet; I'll get to 'em (they're not on Hulu yet). While binge-watching, I kept seeing "Russell Mulcahy" in TW opening credits. I knew the name was familiar but couldn't place it, so I Googled him.

He's a former producer/director of US Queer As Folk. Which explains so much about the twink porn-y visual aesthetics of TW. totally called that; it wasn't just cougar-ish hormones, yay! )

Sadly, Teen Wolf S4-S5 kind of just suck. It's pretty much what happened on The Vampire Diaries, so I'm not surprised... these supernatural-high-school-kid shows with teen demographics all follow the same formulas. Sigh.

In other happy news, the 3rd (and last) season of Hemlock Grove will premiere on Netflix October 23. Now there is a supernatural-high-schoolers show with werewolves and vampires that I can enjoy for more than just the eye candy (though that's there, lol).

Part of why it's so great? it's Netflix -- plus it's not aimed at a teen demographic or at least not exclusively -- plus Famke Jannsen, Lily Taylor, Kandyse McClure )
verushka70: Dylan O'Brien's hands and forearms (wet-pants-hands)
So like a month and a half ago I started binge-watching Teen Wolf, which I had never seen before because I haven't had cable TV in forever. It was in my Amazon Prime video queue for like over a year; I merely waited because my first choice supernatural creature is vampires, not werewolves.

First few episodes hooked me, especially when the Derek/Stiles interaction began. What chemistry! Sadly, this may be the fastest I got into and then got disillusioned with a show ever (yay, streaming video and binge-watching? \o?). what the hell happened post-S3? and why I continued to watch: Stiles... and his hands and forearms )

So I went on AO3 to find Derek/Stiles fic and there are over 37,000 Derek/Stiles fics. stunned, I hunted for recs and found a sweet, hot story so good it ruined me for most Derek/Stiles fic by setting the bar pretty damn high. )

Despite the turns canonical TW take in S4 (apparently there's no Hoechlin in S5, wtf?), there's a happy place in my brain where slashy canonical moments in slashy shows live forever and create their own world (an AU HBO explicit slash world). It's not just my brain, of course; it's a collective happy place, which is what is so awesome about fandom in general. \o/

So of course I had to contribute to that world... I ficced Derek/Stiles. *facepalm* Like I need a new fandom of manboys so young they could literally be my kids. in which I have a new sympathy for old guys who helplessly lust after young women because apparently I'm a cougar-wannabe? )

Anyway the fic is Derek/Stiles, it's a little angsty, it's Stiles' POV, it's a first time (first everything), it's a zero-to-120mph in two seconds (well, one night) hella explicit story. further details on the fic, like sort of PWP but not really-ish )

Of course I feel guilty because I have a dS WIP that I've had for literally a year, and I'm stuck/writer's blocked on it, and should be working on that... and here I fic in a totally new fandom instead. Sigh!

FWIW my fic is The Devil You Know
...and here's a little excerpt/summary:

"So," Derek says like it's utterly obvious. (It's not, it's totally not). It's hard to know how to take someone you can't really read. Derek's tongue licks between Stiles' lips like all of this was never in question. (Was it? No, not really, because: Derek).

Now if only TPTB would allow the shaved/waxed hairless TW men and boys to either grow or show their chest hair. why must they all be hairless or hide their chest hair? is it the teen girl demographic or the gay aesthetic? )
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Here's a permissions thingy:

Blanket permission to podfic as desired. I would be incredibly flattered. Just link back.

Conditional permission to remix fic: Please no remixes into non-canonical kidfic or mpreg.
verushka70: CKR's hands are just so damn sexy. (hand porn)
It's just a few hours until True Detective wraps up with its last episode of this season. I am both incredibly excited and apprehensive. I want to know what's going to happen, but the suspense is kind of killing me... and I'm still kind of numb and freaked out about what happened last week.

SPOILERS for episode 7 (and what I'm afraid will happen tonight on episode 8) )
verushka70: I took this photo of a waterfall at dusk in Olympic National Park in 2009. (waterfall)
I hate you. Fuck you very much. (And your pal Migraine, too.)

I'd go on, but I can't, thanks to you.

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verushka70: S4E1 Walt alone silhouette wearing hat and holding shotgun (True Detective)
Ooooookay, carrion birds, the sleaze bag "men of affluence" trail is getting warmer, the possibilities of redemption (or disaster) for everyone down on their luck, and the dark, dark noir... I am THERE.
verushka70: I took this photo of a waterfall at dusk in Olympic National Park in 2009. (waterfall)
Dear Nick Pizzolatto (like you'll ever read this):
I truly was addicted to Season 1 of True Detective. It was hypnotic, fantastically gothic southern noir, and had all sorts of elements (not to mention great acting by the leads and the ensemble cast) that pushed my buttons, plus an amazing soundtrack.

Now we're up to Episode 3 of Season 2. I'm happy the soundtrack is still appropriately foreboding (and thematically similar). I was iffy on the casting up until seeing 2x1. But when I saw 2x1, I was okay with it mainly because all the leads are playing broken, angsty people (<3 <3 <3).

I'm ignoring critics and fan responses to the new season in order to form my own opinion. I have not read a SINGLE professional or fan review or recap of a single Season 2 episode so far (just info on cast). So this is purely my opinion.

Your actors this season were *all* cast against type. You had to know going in, people might have a problem with it (I did, and I'm very willing to suspend disbelief for an ultra-noir show like TD). why it worked in S1 )

But after 2x1, I was with you and with your cast-against-type S2 characters... up until last night, that is. why it isn't working as well in S2 )

I get the intertwining of themes of pollution and environmental degradation in a sunny, beautiful climate with the fertility problems of Frank's and Ray's wives. I get that these hidden toxicities parallel the ingrained, embedded corruption (occasionally shot through with streaks of hopeless attempts at morality) among the ambitious and desperate cops/career criminals/politicians in your beautifully shiny, sleazy, perverse, twisted SoCal noir.

I get that you're saying these categories (cop, criminal, politician) are basically parts of the same inherently immoral patriarchal power structure fighting over finite pieces of a rotten pie. I <3 these themes! It is so great to see deeply cynical noir themes up on my TV screen that aren't my DVDs of classic noir from one or two generations before me, but are lovely postmodern twists.

But, dude. your lead characters say stuff they would never say IRL -- or in eps 2x1 or 2x2, for that matter )

If anyone were to say these words, it would be Detective Bezzarides. She's the one reading Hagakure (The Book of the Samurai) how do I know that? I checked )

And... classic Greek tragedy name? rilly? ) The meta you seem to be going for is a little obvious.

SPOILERY predictions based on canon implications from 2x1 to 2x3 )

The way everyone with something to gain is willing to pimp out colleagues &/or underlings in order to gain it -- whether cop, politician, or organized crime -- is especially well done. It is so matter-of-fact that it indicates just how ingrained and necessary such exploitation is to the essence of patriarchy. I mean, politics, law enforcement, and organized crime are nothing if not utterly patriarchal structures.

But I truly hope for no more jarring, unrealistic dialogue from your lead characters.

Maybe I'm hoping against hope... It throws me right out of the story

And I'm sorry to nitpick because, as with S1, it's such a well done show in so many respects. But some of this nitpicking is because what little is wrong with S2 ruins my suspension of disbelief, and I don't want that. I want to be absorbed, addicted, and hypnotized like I was during S1!
verushka70: CKR's hands are just so damn sexy. (hand porn)
Okay, so they're 4-5 years old. But CKR's still hot in these Shattered promo pics from 2010. Yay.
CKR Shattered promo 1
CKR Shattered promo 2
Shattered is available via Hulu so I just started watching it again tonight. I had downloaded it in the past, but never could get all the episodes. I read the episodes had been originally broadcast out of order, so I Googled to be sure Hulu wasn't. In the process of Googling, I found the Shattered Facebook page... which had these yummy pics.
verushka70: CKR's hands are just so damn sexy. (hand porn)
Was shockingly (for me) busy this last week and over the weekend, Read more... )

Ronnie Spector's concert a week from this past Sunday was totally worth it. Read more... )

But Ronnie! Man, she's like, what, 71? And still rocking. And still big pipes! She was totally on-key, all the time, not one false note, and had to hold the mic away from her mouth sometimes because her voice, it is just that big! Read more... )

I was all, Bah, humbug! about xmas before the concert. My boss and a couple of coworkers have been forcing us to listen to the all Christmas station since after Halloween, which is way too soon imho. But after all Ronnie's Christmas tunes -- and the old Ronettes hits -- I finally surrendered. shopped and actually minorly decorated my apartment for xmas, first time in... years, I think )

So then every night after that last week I caught up on stuff I needed to do Read more... )

My nephew's concert this past Friday was great, even the regular chorus kids. Sounds of Sweetness' acapella rendition of "Counting Stars" was A-MAZE-ING. There's one kid, not a regular member, I think he's on the (autism) spectrum, who often joins them just to do percussion sounds -- he's like a human beat box. Man, he was great; it would not have been what it was, without him. He really brings it. assorted other comments on SoS and the recital and family bullshit )

With all the family and most of the work and personal stuff done, I settled in for a weekend of hopefully no migraines (wish came true=yayyay!!) and catching up on stuff I hadn't watched. grey had mentioned Gracepoint a while back Read more... )

I had managed to miss both Gracepoint eps of the last two weeks, so I caught up on those this weekend. Really was not expecting the twist of who really did it. As they were leading up to it, I started moaning, "No, no, NO!", finally yelling at the TV, I was so shocked. I won't give it away, and I haven't seen Broadchurch, so no idea if this is how it went on Broadchurch. But I would say this was one of the more successful rug-pulled-out-from-under-you plot twists I've seen the last few years.

I watched the premiere of S6 of Vampire Diaries when it occurred -- and was horribly disappointed. why I wasn't enthused to begin with )

So, this weekend, I thought I'd try to catch up. omg, I couldn't. I watched like the first ten minutes of 3 different eps in a row and was like, No, honey, we're done. how you know you're done with a show )

On to Archer Vice. I started watching Archer in S2, and it was the most hilarious, inapprops, non-stop cracked out show I'd ever seen, yet with all this insane wit, great dialogue and snappy comebacks, a great ensemble cast, and so many bizarre homages and nods to old and new war movies, scifi, and spy stories and 1970s pop culture how geeky am I about Archer? )

That being said... S5 of Archer, from last January to March, when it became Archer Vice... I was on the fence about it. Sure, the show is cracked out to begin with, but I kind of felt it, too, went off the rails last season. It took me until 5x5 to really get into all the new insanity of the 5th season. why I kept watching anyway, unlike with VD )

But then, Archer has always been a combination of low-brow and high-brow. And knowing a Archer S6 is coming in January, I decided to rewatch last season. So when I binge-re-watched S5/Archer Vice this past weekend, I was less on the fence and much more omg, take that US intelligence and foreign policy! because the continuing season-long backstory arc is totally seditious -- and if government and military authorities expected Adam Reed to just nicely kill off the fictional ISIS just to politely accommodate them, well, I bet they sure regret that now.

The season long arc leads up to a basic indictment of US "intelligence," not to mention portraying the huge mistakes of American foreign policy wrt all the South American banana republics and dictators we constantly set up so they would be under our control. And, as cracked out as Archer Vice was -- and I do still have problems with Pam's cocaine-related slimdown -- it's actually not as cracked out as American foreign policy. So. There's that.

But, I almost forgot: Elementary.

For all us non-football fans who are fans of Elementary, the Elementary ep of 2 Thursdays ago was tragically unavailable because the Chicago Bears were playing Read more... )

Comments on this season so far: I am disappointed that the whole Mycroft thing has seemingly disappeared without a trace. (Rather like Irene/Moriarty, right? Ugh.). I mean, what? mini-rant about the comings and goings of characters who only ever broke up the Holmes/Watson dyad or served as season-long story arc devices ) And, so far, while there have been individual eps that have been clever, I have just not recovered from the whole handwavy "Sherlock moved back to London when Watson moved out and abandoned the consultancy with NYPD/Captain Gregson, leaving that to Watson alone; now all of a sudden he's back in NY, but with a new female sidekick, er, protege, who herself is... a victim of a horrific crime and the anti-Moriarty! ta-da, here's Kitty!"

I have nothing personal against Kitty and she seems like a character with great potential. (But I really have a problem with her backstory of being a rape/torture/abduction victim, and how that's going to 'serve' the Holmes/Watson stories... I mean, why? Why must she be damaged from jump?)

And given the way the preceding two stand-ins for this type of character were treated (Irene/Moriarty in S1; Mycroft in S2, and, to a lesser extent, Marcus), I do not have high hopes for Kitty's development as a character and not just a season-long-story-arc-plot-device. And I do have a problem with the introduction of yet another person to get between Sherlock and Watson. Why? Wherefore? The Holmes/Watson partnership was working so nicely in S1 and the early part of S2... why, why, WHY must writers fix what isn't broken?

All of that being said... I do appreciate the fact that Watson now has a place of her own and a new beau... and, canonically speaking (relating to the original Conan Doyle stories), it is correct that Watson moves out from Holmes' place. In the original Conan Doyle stories, of course, he got married, but mixed it up with Sherlock regularly after (presumably) married life got boring.

But, just as I had a problem with Marcus' Sherlock-caused injury being used as a plot device last season, I have a problem with Kitty being introduced. was there ever such a character in Conan Doyle's original stories? don't think so; also, why must Elementary be dumbed down? why must everyone be assumed to be so stupid that we won't figure it out? )

Oh, I forgot to mention this in the title of my post: How To Get Away With Murder. I really, really hate the Grey's Anatomy-ish setup with all the twentynothings who are supposed to be the eye candy pulling in younger viewers, and I really, really love Viola Davis and don't understand why she can't have a The Good Wife-ish role without a bunch of dumb young eye candy taking the story away from her character. my other issues with HTGAWM )

I have tried to watch Sleepy Hollow and Agents of Shield this season, and to catch up on their last seasons. I have failed. oh, just take a guess. )

All of this makes me yearn for the third season of Hannibal. Hannibal walks a very fine line between totally cracked out (let's face it: all those insanely fucked up murders Will gets called in to profile have never actually occurred -- at least, not before those episodes were broadcast) and yet Taking Itself Very Seriously.

Hannibal is thoroughly creepy, absorbing, and hypnotic. This is largely because of all the leads, all of whom are amazing actors in their own rights, but especially on this show. other reasons I can't not watch Hannibal )

The slash -- and everything else -- is so there in Hannibal (and polymorphous, too). And yet it is so well written -- and so horrifyingly dark and seductive and twisted and almost odious in where it's going -- that I can't quite make myself read or search for much Hannibal fic or slashfic.

I can't decide if it is a good thing or a bad thing when you fear that a show is so well written that it's highly unlikely the vast majority of the fanfic will meet that same standard, as the bar has almost been set too high.

I was thinking about this the other day, as I am still (grrr, still) struggling through a DS fic sigh, this is why I don't write that much anymore, aside from the RSIs )

Anyway, while thinking about DS, and rewatching some eps to try to get back into the groove so I can finish this fic, I realized that, while I loved DS and thought it was a well-written if family-oriented show -- and yet very slashy -- with a well-developed sense of whimsy, it was by no means perfect.

So, sometimes, in many different but equally enthralling permutations, it seems like DS fanfic (especially, but not exclusively, the slashfic) is the better 'verse -- better than the canonical suffers. Sometimes much better. how strange and wonderful, and is it just because the fanfic is 'the HBO version' of the show? I think not )

Whether that's accurate or not, the bottom line is the fanfic 'verse for DS has taken on a life of its own, one which is far more in-depth and more complex, as are the characters, than the original show and characters were... and I really love that that happened.

Can that only happen with a show where there are certain restrictions and parameters?

Which reminds me... it'll be, like, six more months before we get the next Penny Dreadful! Sigh.

But then, there is the new season of Lost Girl... I haven't seen the first 2 eps yet. But I can't go into that, I have to go to bed, and yes, it's cracky, but it's also tongue-in-cheek )

Crap. I really must go to bed. Gotta be at work by 8:30! At least it's not 6:30 like it used to be.
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I don't want to dwell. Or tempt The Fates. But I am just so sick and tired of being sick and tired and in pain and turning out to have "no major health problems." About a week and a half ago, I had a bout of tendinitis so bad I could hardly use the computers at work coupled with a cycle of repeated disabling headaches. Ironically, this began shortly after I went to a big-deal headache clinic here to see why I'm having so many headaches lately.

the headache clinic visit, what it cost, what I learned )

I was like, "Well, I just thought it was my bruxism/fibro/TMJ." He was like, "Oh, no -- you have all that; you just have migraines superimposed on top of that." He went on to explain that some of the weirder symptoms I've had (constantly tearing eyes, which I associated with terrible seasonal allergies/sinusitis; like transient tinnitis that goes back and forth between my ears, then disappears, which I associated with too-loud headphone use in the 1990s; like piercing pain wrapped like a band around my head, which I figured was from the bruxism/TMJ) are all symptoms of migraines.

Who knew.I get RXs for meds and lab work, I get my blood drawn )

So I got the results mailed to me with a letter from the headache clinic doctor saying that everything was normal. this should be good news, right? )

At first when I read all my lab results, I was like, Yay! happy, happy, joy, joy! I have no major health problems. And, don't get me wrong -- that IS fantastic. I am not diabetic, I don't have high blood pressure, my anemia appears to have normalized, and my lipids/cholesterol are great (like they were last time I had them done, several years ago now).

Now it's a few days later and I'm like, Well that's just fucking great. I have no major health problems.

I'm exhausted all the time; I can barely drag myself to work; my time off work is often spent in excruciating pain (but then, that sometimes happens at work, too); my sleep is unrestful; my head, neck, upper back, and teeth hurt most of the time; I often feel like a woman twice my age; I'm often barely functioning (despite taking antidepressants, 3 new meds for migraines, a few OTC allergy/sinus/pain meds, and a boatload -- literally, like 2 shoeboxes -- of vitamins, supplements and herbs to try to decrease pain, get better sleep and fucking feel better) --

but there's nothing wrong with me.

I know that I am lucky to have no major health problems. I don't mean to tempt The Fates by complaining, because god knows it could be so much worse.

But I'm just physically miserable. Yet my lab work is fantastic and makes me look like there is nothing wrong with me.


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